the girl with demons

So she have feelings

I opened my eyes and I was in black room without doors. "Welcome to the panic room ... you're visiting me again " voice said "I didn't want to... I just sat on my bed and closed my eyes" I replied "It means you needed it" but I didn't need it "I'd rather lie in my warm bed now" it got colder in the room "You had to?! I'm sick of you, I don't know who you are and we're talking in some strange dark room... IT'S INSANE!!!" I screamed and the voice kept silent. "Now you will be silent?!" I was pissed "This is what I was trying to achieve ... you're pissed" she pissed me off more and more "Do you remember your time at Hydra" voice asked "Yea but I can say that Avengers saved me... thanks to them I'm not there anymore" deeply, I was grateful to them for that "That's not what I meant... but you exactly know what I am talking about" I knew... "That was long time ago" I whispered "But you still can't sleep" it's true, I didn't sleep at night because I was scared. "I know what you feel" maybe it was just my imagination, but her confident voice trembled slightly "No... you don't. Do you even have feelings?" I have wanted to ask this question for a long time but of course she said nothing. "Here I can help you too" shoe spoke after moment "I don't need your help... last time I killed someone in my head and it didn't even help... and then i burned his house" voice giggled So she have feelings "I will take you somewhere" Oh god "I prefer to stay here" voice giggled one more time. Suddenly I was standing in my old room, someone was lying in my bed "Wait... that's me" I recognized myself under the covers. I looked ta my bedside table "13th of september" a date that I will not forget "The day you ran away" A tear ran down my cheek "Yea... ran away" I whispered more to myself. The window in my room slowly opened and a man dressed in black stepped inside. "Hello sweetheart" he said. He slowly came to my bed and sat on it then I woke up and he covered my mouth with his hand. He slowly ran his hand over my neck and then down. "OKAY STOP!!" I immediately went back to the panic room. I leaned against the wall and dropped to the floor. I hided my head in my hands and the tears just flew. Suddenly I felt cold and slowly lifted my head. I was in my cell at Hydra base. "No, no, NO GET ME OUT OF HERE!!"I screamed. I heard footsteps on corridor. My cell door slowly opened and Agent Rumlow stepped inside. "Hey sweetheart" he said and he took off his shirt. I was attached so there was nothing I could do. "STOP IT!!!" I went back to the panic room. The tears flew and I had no control over them. I closed my eyes and found myself on the comfy bed again...

"You want to talk to me" I said as I entered the lab "Yea... you should sit down" It surprised me a bit, but I sat down on the chair. "So you know that your parents weren't your biological parents. I managed to find out who they were" I did not expect this "My biological parents?" he sighs "Yea"I was wondering if I really wanted to know who they are "I want to know" I whispered "Fine... so yours mum name was Chloe Evans" all life in a lie has been revealed "And dad?" He sighs "Is he dead?" I asked "Your mum is dead" These words hurt a little bit. "Well um... that's f-fine. I didn't even know her... and my dad?" I saw that it was hard for him to talk about it "Um... I'm sorry for what I'm going to tell you now. I don't want to ruin your world and your life, but it will change it dramatically... i'm your dad" Well... I didn't expect that. I got up and just left.

Avengers POV

"Someone saw Vanessa?!" Tony asked "Not since you spoke to her" Peter relied. Tony looked worried "What did you tell her?" Bucky asked but Tony stay silent "WHAT THE HELL DID YOU TELL HER?!?!" he aksed one more time "I told her about her bilogical parents" Tony said "WHAT?!" Bucky was really pissed off "And you leave her alone?!" Natasha asked pissed off and upset "She left alone" Tony whispered 

Vanessa's POV

I entered Hydra's base without drawing anyone attention on me. In addition, I had my hydra suit. I went to place... few people were allowed there but it was not difficult to roll up the access card. I walked into the most secure room on the base, and no one noticed me. I exactly knew what I had to do. I found box with describtion "Experiment 392"I opened it. I found my stuff inside but I only took my braclet with light blue stone. I quickly sneak out I was already outside when I heard the alarm "Sorry boys!!" I screamed and blew up the entire base. I made sure there was nothing left...

Each time I visit Panic Room after that I did horrible things. I burned house and blew up a building. I was doing things I normally wouldn't do. Maybe caleb hurt me and I still didn't get over this but that IS NOT a reason to kill him. I tried this once but I will not try it second time. That is sign to not go to Panic Room... but I feel a little  better everytime. I AM HURTING PEOPLE AND I AM FEELING BETTER AFTER THIS?! SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH ME!! It was always like this. I always choose wrong company. Bad boy, bad gang, bad friends... mafia. GOD just forget about it!