A Fine Line Between Love and Hate

Chapter 8

I drove back to our house completely out of it. My mind wouldn't rest and it persisted in having the image of a broken Brian I had just left, permanently in my mind and I couldn't take it. Brian was everything to me and the feeling of guilt consumed me as I couldn't be there for him in his hour of need, just like he was for me.

I jumped out of my car and brought the present that was in the car with me. Luckily, it was still in the bag that was from the shop. My story was full proof and I couldn't be more relieved. Matt had begun to see that he was wrong and things were right once again. All I had to do was show Matt that me and Brian were just friends but he was making that increasingly difficult.

I walked through the door and Matt was pacing back and forth, pinching the bridge of his nose. My legs froze and they refused to move an inch. Did he know where I had been? This is what I usually come home to when I had been late from work. He must know and the fear began to rise and capture my body.

"Where have you been?" he angrily questioned.

"I told you. I was buying Laura's birthday present," I timidly replied, praying that he hadn't reverted back to his old ways.

"It doesn't take that long to buy a stupid fucking present. I want the truth!" he shouted. His voice bellowed and bounced off the walls of the house, making him even more scary. The look on his face was wild and a vein bulged out of his neck, showing me just how angry he was.

I gulped, "I was. I promise I was buying the stupid present. I've had it on order for a couple of weeks and I needed to sign a few things to verify that I did have it on order."

I stood and watched him digest my lies. His eyes softened and I knew I had fooled him but I didn't know how long I could keep it up. He normal saw straight through me and always gave me a harsh punishment for it. His chest rose up and down at a normal rate now and I could see the anger vanishing. 

"Okay. I believe you but next time a phone call would be nice. My mind was racing with thoughts that you were with Brian," he told me. I felt all the air leave my lungs and my eyes went wide. The reality of the situation set in, this was far too dangerous especially after all that I had promised and the man I fell in love with was finally coming back to me. I now knew that Matt wouldn't be fooled for long. He would work things out and my world would come crashing down around me. There was no way he would be able to hold his anger back leaving me and Brain in the firing line. "Why don't you get changed and I'll wrap this. We are going to be late if we don't get a move on."

I nodded my head and passed Matt the bag with the present inside. He took it off me and as he did, he pulled my arm making me collided with his muscular body. I tensed up at the feeling of having him pressed against me. Brian was right, no matter what he did I would always love him and always have a burning desire for him.

He leaned down and pressed his lips firmly against mine. I felt a rush of electricity surge through me and set my body on fire. He always made my body feel alive, the way he moves his lips against mine and the way our tongues danced passionately is enough to do crazy things to me. He always made my knees weak. I enjoyed his kisses more than anything. There was something always so intense to have his lips against mine.

We broke apart and he huskily whispered, "I laid out your pink dress on the bed. You look stunning in it and you'll be the most beautiful woman there."

"Thank you," I said breathlessly. 

He let me go and I went straight for the stairs and walked into our bedroom where the dress laid neatly on top of our bed. I walked over to it and ran my fingers through the material. I looked at it astonished as he must not remember who actually bought it.