loving you with borderline personality disorder

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march 10, 2021

i had the worst breakdown of my life, and even now i have no idea to why. we only started talking three days ago and yet, telling you the most important thing about myself—that i'm asexual—was the scariest fucking thing ever in that moment. before you could even answer me, i was having the worst panic attack.

my bpd spiraled.

i just immediately assumed the worst. that a sexless relationship was a dealbreaker. you would stop talking to me—abandon me. i was preparing myself for what usually happens to me when i tell people, but like always, you surprised me.

"i would never make it a big deal."

as much as it reassures me, i hope you mean that. people have told me that before, only to change their mind. :(