𝙊𝙣𝙚 𝙈𝙤𝙧𝙚 •《Hinata Shoyo x Reader》

𝒪𝓃e ℳo𝓇e || 23

"I still couldn't contact him, seems like he's still busy," You said in a low voice to Yachi.

Yachi stayed silent for a while, it's been days since you've heard of that break-up rumor of you and Shoyo, and not being able to talk to him makes you feel even worse, you were just doing fine before, even without talking to him, it was fine for you since you know how hardworking Shoyo is, but now, because of that rumor you started overthinking and doubting him, he wouldn't say that right? They did not get that info from him, right? You thought.

"You know that you can just ask Enno about it right?" Yachi suggested, these days Yachi has been more attentive than everyone else, she was worried about you since it was clear that you aren't acting like your usual self. Normally, this kind of misunderstanding would be solved by now.

Although Yachi's suggestion was already given the moment you guys have heard of the issue and probably the only way to fix this, you hated it. You hated that idea because you were afraid of knowing the truth, that it might have come from Shoyo's mouth.

"I'm scared, what if he's the one who told them that? That we broke up? I should just ask him directly, that way it would hurt less since I heard it from him" you explained.

"And what if he didn't? What if it really was just a rumor? Hinata-kun will be offended, Y/N. Imagine your partner hearing that you guys broke up and she immediately called you to ask you if you were the one who told other people, how would you feel? Why do you think it was Hinata-kun anyway?" Yachi argued, she had a point but for some reason, it doesn't feel right. It feels bad but deep inside your mind and heart is still pointing at Shoyo, both are still framing Shoyo for it- it's a gut feeling that you couldn't just erase.

"And remember, that Kazuma likes messing with you! He was probably the one-" you cut off Yachi. And just like that, your mind finally managed to get it all together. 

"He didn't! I know now why I think it was Shoyo- because Yachi, if it was Kazuma, then I would be the main topic of our whole campus, if it was someone who wants to mess with me, then by now we would already hear my name everywhere, but we only heard it from Ennoshita, and I'm sure the only ones who heard about it was the team" you said putting everything together, Yachi's mouth went wide open, she then frowned and stood up.

"THAT IDIOT BETTER ANSWER HIS PHONE LATER!" She said angrily while you tried your best to calm her down. She was about to dial him using her phone to test if he would answer it, but a ring from your phone distracted her from doing so.

"You're still not answering those phone calls?" Pedro, who's busy reading his one piece manga asked me.

I took a deep breath and closed my eyes "I screwed up" I admitted while pulling my own hair out of frustration, seriously out of all things that had to be said, why did my own mouth betrayed me and said the most non-sense phrase ever?!

"So you guys did not break up" Pedro replied, I turned to him, how did he know?!

"How'd you even know?!" I asked, slightly panicking.

Pedro dropped his book and looked at me with disbelief evident in his eyes as if I'm the most stupid person he has ever met.

"You do know that I was here reading my manga when you told your friend that you guys broke up right?" he said making me slapped myself even more. No, no, no! But that was not the shocking part!

"I-I K-KNOW! What I mean is, how'd you know that we did not?" I asked again.

He smirked at me and let out a 'tch' "It's impossible, the last time you and your girlfriend talked, you guys were just fine, after that you never got the chance to talk again since you were always busy and she probably was too, so how could you guys break up? I doubt it was over a text, I didn't mean to invade your privacy but the day after you told them I saw her last text on your phone" he explained everything as if he's on some mystery drama and he's the detective.

I just gave him a look and avoided his gaze again, now he's going to ask me why I said that to them- and honestly, I'm ashamed to even admit why, it was too petty.

"I'm not going to ask you why, though I have a clue on it" he added which made me turn to him again.

"REALLY?! WAIT- WHAT? You know why?" Seriously? Are there even things that this man ain't aware of? He's too scary.

I guess I have no choice but to admit it.

"I got tired of it," I said to him as If he's my mom waiting for me to tell the truth.

It was honestly tiring, the relationship, the pressure of being in it. Well, what happened you ask?

That day, even though I was tired, I was still happy and delighted because I finally got the chance to talk to her and to my former teammates. I was about to call her when my upperclassman called me first, it was Sugawara-senpai, when I answered it he said he was with the other upperclassmen, they told me stories and I gladly listened. I listened to them with so much joy, how I wish I was there too, to bond with them.

After they told me their stories, they asked me something and I know I had it bad when I started feeling so upset and disappointed, why was I disappointed? Why was I upset about it? It's a normal thing to ask, they ask me that every time, but why wasn't I glad about it? That was when I realized that I was expecting more from them, that was when I realized that I wanted them to ask about me too, but they didn't.

They asked me about our relationship. "How was your relationship?" "How is Y/N?" "Are you guys doing fine?" "Are you taking good care of her?" "Is she really okay with you being so far away from her?" How was I supposed to know? I'm not her.

And what about me? Still, I hoped- maybe they will ask about me later, I comforted myself, but I was a fool for doing that, they never did. They never checked up on me, only that idiot Kageyama did, which comforted me a little.

It's not that I'm jealous of her, but seriously, I just wanted them to ask about me instead of our relationship, how am I? Am I okay? Am I adjusting well? Just like that. But that never happened, so I got tired of putting up an act and told a terrible lie, an act after an act, funny right?

"Ah, we broke up a little while ago, sorry for disappointing you" after I said that, they finally did ask me, "Sorry to hear that, how are you then? Are you okay?"

And I just laughed, that felt so good but hurts so bad.

And now here I am, regretting my life choices, I'm really such an idiot!

"It's okay to feel that way since for someone who just moved and is still having a hard time adjusting, they were clearly being too oblivious on your feelings, but you definitely fucked up when you told them that, you could have just snapped on them you know? But I know you wouldn't do that since you have so much respect for them" Pedro said after the long silence.

I smiled at him "You know me so well."

He rolled his eyes "Your girlfriend probably knows you well better than I do, I bet she already knows about it since she keeps on calling you so you better talk and explain everything to her."

"Got it"

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I've been gone for too long lolol so here's an update- and yes I just tried a transition from third's person POV to a First-person POV. 

ANYWAY, HOW ARE YOU GUYS? MY LAST EXAM ENDED LAST WEEK! SO I CAN FINALLY BE ACTIVE AGAIN! WE'RE JUST WAITING FOR OUR GRADES AND GRADUATION NOW LMAO WHY.