Original Poems

Your Own Personal Gain.

That's it.
I'm finally done.
I gave you a chance,
I gave you more than one.
But you don't care,
And you never did.
I was there for you,
But you just ran and hid.
No more, "I'm sorry."
No more, "I swear I'm trying to change."
You had your chance,
Quit trying to rearrange
All those messages and words put in my head.
You left me here
Left me wishing I was dead.
So erase my name and those memories from your head.
I'll do the same instead of wishing you were dead.

Cause you don't deserve that and I never did.
You should have thought of that before you ran and hid.
You shouldn't have left me there crying on the floor.
You shouldn't have been the one walking out that door.
There's no more chances,
No more trying to ease the pain.
You don't deserve that,
Cause it would only be for your own personal gain.

Now back to the story
Ya know the one I'm trying to erase?
You turned my past five months into nothing but waste.
Wishing I was dead or just not caring
The thoughts in my head were becoming really scary.
Not like the ones that you hear everyday,
These ones were new and they took away all of my pain.
The pain of what you did to me.
Of me trying to be set free.
You didn't need me and that I understood,
But I'd rather die than to be your source of "good."

Cause I don't deserve that and I never did.
You should have thought of that before you ran and hid.
You shouldn't have left me there crying on the floor.
You shouldn't have been the one that went walking out that door.
There's no more chances,
No more trying to ease the pain.
You don't deserve that,
Cause it would only be for your own personal gain.

But here's the final part as I say my last goodbye,
I never wished you pain,
I never wished that you would die.
I just want rest
Want to be done with this stupid test.
That's all I've wanted since you left me filled with dread.
But all those memories replaying in my head,
Kept me from moving on
Kept me wishing I was dead.
I wish the best for you
I really honestly do.
I'll keep my word and make sure you know it's true.

Cause you deserve that and you always did.
I should have thought of that before I did what I did.
I shouldn't have been the one crying on the floor.
I should have been the one that let you walk out that door.
I'm done with chances,
And I've started to erase the pain.
But for my own good,
Not for your personal gain.