Original Poems

The Way He Changed Me

I loved Him so hard I forgot to hate Myself.

I even began to get out of bed early instead of not at all just to see His lovely face.
I was so busy loving Him, I didn't even notice all the wilted flowers inside of Me were starting to grow back.
And I was trying so hard to impress Him that I finally cleaned up My mess of a life
Maybe it wasn't spotless but it was still enough.
I stopped slumping my shoulders and started looking people in the eye.
He made Me want to get better, and I did.
God did I get better.
His touch made Me feel things I hadn't been able to feel in a long time.
I loved Him so much I fell in love with Myself.

But He left me, and I've started hating Myself again.

I don't get out of bed early anymore.
I sleep all day and all night just so I don't have to see His lovely face.
I'm not busy loving Him anymore.
The flowers inside of Me are wilting again.
I can't impress Him anymore.
My life is a mess more than ever.
My shoulders are more slumped than before, and I avoid eye contact more than ever.
He made Me want to get better, and god, I did.
But now He's gone and I'm worse than ever.
Thinking of His touch makes me feel things I wish I never would've felt.
And now, I hate Him so much I hate Myself more than ever before.