When a Fan Fall in Love

CHAPTER 21 - I FELL

warning: This chapter is a bit sensitive. Before reading this, please be emotionally prepare and be sure to fully finish the story to get the whole meaning of it. Thank you for giving time for this story.

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The day was bright, but my life became dark. It was for a moment I felt joy, but at every sunset, the same darkness takes over.

That short term goal on being with EXO brought me joy but the moment that goal ended, the joy came with it too. It ended.

"I'm sorry, Omma" Ji Eun sobbed, "I just can't let you go."

Her skirt got swayed by the wind. She was still wearing the white dress she wore at the ceremony. Her dress were as white as the clouds. But the pains she felt continued to stay as if it was a gloomy cloud, forming a storm, ready to hit the ground. The wind kept on messing her hair just as her life was.

"I tried my best. Without you, I'm dead inside." tears fell down and she could feel the wind dry it all up.

"I Succeeded on my bucket list. I should be happy. I succeeded on being with EXO but that was my last goal... then this. I have hard time succeeding on things but this... It's funny how life doesn't go along with the way you wanted it to be."  tears kept falling from eyes through her cheeks through the gushing river.

"I was able to achieve my goal. I wonder if you would be proud of me..." she broke down. "I'm sorry. I know you won't like this at all. But you're only child is tired. All I needed is you. Forgive me."

She stopped crying and looked up the skies. She waited for a drop of tears to slowly move down to her face. The moment she felt the tear drop down from her face, she slowly released her hold from the railings of the bridge. She let her body got pulled by the gravity.

"NO!!!!"

——CHANYEOL'S POV ——

"LIFE..."

"Do we live for a reason? Is it for a certain purpose?
Do you think everything has its purpose? What if you can't find its purpose? Does that give you the right to stop?
What if it's true that we live for a purpose, Do we really need to know it all? Can we live even without knowing it? Can we just be alive because we are breathing?

Can you just stay with me? Can you just don't mind whatever purpose it is and just enjoy your every breath with me? Can you just find your purpose not knowing where it will led you? Can you just continue to keep searching for that purpose even though there is no certainty for its existence? Can you just keep existing for me? then, can I be your purpose?

I don't know it all; but one thing is for sure, people draw energy from each other. Just like how yawn is contagious, Your sweet smile can energize someone. Your touch becomes comfort; Your words—motivates; Your cheer—builds. For a simple act—grows. That's how we help each other even without knowing it. That's the hidden purpose of life that we all possess. You are important.

I cannot name all of my fan, but each one of them matters; I'm thankful for all of them even for the fans I haven't seen. Maybe, just maybe, their cheers, their smile, their prayers—the intangible things they do from afar is what keeping me up on my feet today. Maybe those energies just brought me that power, that motivation to do my best and to keep on going. That is why for my million fans, for my fans around the world, I may not know you, but I do need you because You're my purpose."  

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"No!!!"

Then suddenly just as she was about to fall down, Chanyeol was able to grab her arm, which made her swing towards the railings of the bridge and got hit from the railings of the bridge. Chanyeol almost lost his grip on her the moment her body hit the railings making a bad impact on Ji Eun.

Ji Eun didn't even tried to hold on.

"Just hold on!" Chanyeol shouted. "Please!"

He could see her pain. Her eyes were filled with tears. She couldn't even say something she just looked up to him while in pain.

"Please, Ji Eun. Hold on" Chanyeol couldn't held his tears.

Chanyeol's grip on her arm slowly slid up to her wrist.

"This isn't right. Hold on."

Ji Eun slowly moved her head from side to side it was like she was saying to him that she couldn't hold on anymore.

Chanyeol's tears fell from his eyes. He tightened his grip on her wrist but Ji Eun tried to get away from it lifting her other hands and touching the hand of Chanyeol that was holding her wrist. She was still hanging from his grip but then she tried with her strength to get Chanyeols hold from her wrist.

"No!!! Please!!! Please!!! Don't do that!!!" Chanyeol cried out and tried to get hold of Ji Eun with his other hand.

Ji Eun lost her strength as she saw him cried. Tears just kept pouring on both of them.

"Let go." Ji Eun cried.

"Please! Don't! I need you!" Chanyeol cried out.

His tears dropped on her cheeks.

Ji Eun looked at him in the eyes. She realized that she was hurting him. The thought that he have to witness all of this hurt her more.

Then a flashed back came to her.

—-FlashBack ——

"Ugh! It's so tiring! should I just stop studying ? Why did I chose to study nursing!"

"Hahahaha" her mom laughed. "Tsss... Are you going to give up when your almost done with it?"

"Omma! this is is so tiring!"

Her mom chuckled. "You're cute!"

"I give up!" Ji Eun slammed her head on the book that was on the table.

"Oh Come on! You're giving up to the people who needs you?"

Ji Eun looked up to her mom.
Her mom smiled and sat across her.

"Remember why you wanted to be a nurse at the first place?" her mom touched her hands, "You said you wanted to help those people who are in need. You're not giving up on them, are you? You're not giving up on me, right?"

—— end of flashback ——

'I'm not giving up' she thought.

Chanyeol reached for her other hand and Ji Eun reached out for his hand as well.

Chanyeol was able to pulled her up to his arms and they both fell back on the bridge. Chanyeol hugged her tightly making sure he won't lose her.

Ji Eun cried out load as Chanyeol hugged her tightly on the ground. Chanyeol listened to her cry just as how the waters rush down the streams.

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Maybe at the end, what you need is a shoulder to lean on.

LIFE WILL BE TOUGH, BUT YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
KEEP GOING.

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When a fan fall in love, this Love became her goal, her comfort, her vitamins, her joy, her music and her world.
Ironically, when a fan fall in love, THIS LOVE WILL LIFT HER UP.

Ji Eun's POV

This Time, I fell...differently.

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