| - the one - | [newt maze runner]

chapter #21

- ! trigger warning ! -

mentions of:

-anxiety/anxiety attack
-ptsd
-claustrophobia

claus·tro·pho·bi·a

-a situational phobia triggered by an irrational and intense fear of tight or crowded spaces

anx·i·e·ty

-characterized by feelings of tension, worried thoughts and physical changes like increased blood pressure. People with anxiety disorders usually have recurring intrusive thoughts or concerns

P.T.S.D

-disturbing flashbacks, trouble sleeping, emotional numbness, angry outbursts, and feelings of guilt developed after a very stressful, frightening or distressing event, or after a prolonged traumatic experience

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3 things Ren has developed since her time in the box, yet she always knew deep down she had them before. All 3 of these disorders/phobias Ren is experiencing right now.

Ever since her first day up in the maze, ren has grown familiar to the awful feeling of claustrophobia, as soon as she is in a tight space, she goes into a loop, or a frenzy of sorts.

Claustrophobia= her ptsd flashbacks= horrible panic attacks= mentally freaking out to the point she cant control her own body.

As of right now, the worst place Ren could be to cause this, is in a big crowd with no sense of where you're going and no way to get out. As of right now, thats exactly where she is.

As she was walking with her friends in the middle of chaos, she tried her hardest to stick with her friends and drown out everything else. She couldn't freak out, not now.

But, now matter how hard she tried, she couldn't ignore the tightness in her throat and the sudden feeling of forgetting how to breath. The only way to describe her vision was like tv static, her palms sweaty as shivers went down her spine. She could feel her face draining its natural colour, and she only hoped no one could notice her mental state of panic

'inhale 1... 2... 3... 4... hold 1... 2... 3... 4... exhale 1... 2... 3... 4... hold 1... 2... 3... 4... repeat-'

'breath' She thought to her self, 'just breath ren everything is find, you will be fine.'

To her disappointment and relief, newt had noticed rens state of panic and moved even closer to her and held onto her hand, not caring about the sweat.

"Hey hey, you alright?"

"Its uhm... i- i cant... breath or- or see anything i-" trying to regain focus, she shut her eyes, and she was back in the maze.

f l a s h b a c k -

"Ren..."

"No i can't do it, please dont make me do it."

"I believe in you, just get them out of here"

flashback switch-

"HELLO!" I screamed from the shaking box going at incredible speed.