Supposed to be Mine

16 : ⛓️

My fingers were trembling as they ran to explore the leather bondage.. I skipped school today and can't find a reason not to dump myself and just stare at my reflection on the mirror.

Crazy.

The idea of how this collar will change my life from now on still sends shiver and fear on my skin..

How did I let this happen?

How can they accept this so easily?

How will things be from now on?

My eyes darted on it.

Mom specifically chose the Mahogany color, she said it is to complement to my skin but.. No matter how pretty or attractive it is, I don't want it..

I curse it.

All my life I've been living it the way I want it.. I make decisions the way I see and understand it.. I do things according to my needs and desires and live with it..

Not this.

Not tied like this.

Not bonded to a future whom I really am not.

*Knock *Knock

"Kit.."

I heard Mom from the other side of the door..

"Mom.. I'm still full.. I'll eat later.."

"Kit.. You're not full.. You didn't eat dinner last night, no breakfast and lunch too.."

"Mom I'll eat later.. Please.."

"I know you're worried right now.. But Kit.. You, not eating today until tomorrow cannot change anything.."

I knew every word Mom said.. I also know that too.. But--

"Phadbok will surely check on you later after his training and I'll surely inform him that you're refusing to eat.."

My body stiffened.

No.. No.. Not Phad..

I almost stumble on my feet as I hurried to open the door..

"Mom! No!"

"Kit.. He will surel--"

"Okay.. I'm eating.. I'll eat.."

Shiiiit..

I'll be the real shit if Phad will find out..

I took my steps heavily as Mom wrapped her loving hands to my arms.. it was warm.. but not enough to calm me this time.

"Kit.. Is it not itchy? Honey? Don't you think it's too tight? Can we--"

"Dad.."

I hugged Dad and nuzzled my face to him like a three-year old kid experiencing separation anxiety during the first day of class when I found my father in the living room..

"Our Kit.. I-Is it hurting you? Should it be loosen? Is it rubbing on your skin our baby?"

And in Dad's arms and trembling words, I cried, again.

I cannot fully grasp the situation, not until I realize my father didn't leave home for me. Dad told me he's working hard because every one employee's family, is relying to him.. That made me think before that his job is more important, his people are more valuable, and that maybe it's just an excuse to not be with me..

Well..

Damn..

He said, he can't lazily rest his ass, but he's here cradling my weeping heart..

Dad gave me a kiss on the cheek as he landed on the couch and pulled me to him..

"Kit.. We're sorry we're being forceful.. I'm sorry son.."

I sobbed harder..

My parents didn't do wrong, but, pretending that I'm fine will never make me feel better..

"Honey.. Can we loosen it? Don't you think it's painful in his--"

"Hon.. We both don't want Kit to get hurt.. But, the collar must be exactly fitting to his neck or it will easily be torn without consent."

My Mom's voice was calm, firm and soft.. Just like how she has always been.. But this topic is infuriating me.

I hate it!

Dad caressed my back, I'll be the first Omega in both of my parents bloodline.. and with that.. No one in the family experienced this situation so I really don't have anyone.. No one who truly understands.. We're all at lost.

*Bzz *Bzz

Again..

I rejected the call, again..

Those Alphas' will never comprehend this. They can still be who they are and can be even more.

So what about me?

"Kit.. Have you already informed Phadbok and Mark?"

"I didn't."

"After their training.. They will both race here.."

"I'll be sleeping by then.."

"Baby~"

"Mom.."

I'm sorry..

"I don't want to see either of them.."

I stood up and went to the dining table.. The food looked great..

"Mom.. I'll be back in school on Monday.. Can you help me explain to them for the time being?"

I stared at my Mother.. She looked so conflicted for she understood what I meant..

But..

Yeah..

I'm not coming to school without a decision.

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I just notice its rank increased.. 😅😅😅 So, I'd like to thank the readers who are still reading the story.. 😅😅😅

This STBM is valuable to me since, it's my first ABO.. first to require me detailed fluff.. and the first story where I received a lot of help from friends..

And about the other stories.. for the past few days, I've been trying to search the ending chapters I made along with its first chapters but can't find them.

So for the time being.. I'll be updating the chaps I already found so they might be random..

🙏🙏🙏 Thank you.