Supposed to be Mine

17 : 🗝️

*Beep

"Hello?"

"Phad?"

"What's up?"

"Starting tomorrow.."

"What?"

"Can you not pick me up from the house?"

"What do you mean?"

I heard tension from his voice.

"Hey~ I'm not saying to stop picking me up.. I mean, can you get me on the main street instead?"

That turned into quick panic..

"Why? What's wrong?"

"Nothing.. I just want to start walking every morning before going to class.."

"Are you sure? You'll get tired.. and it's not safe..."

"It's still within the community.. It's fine.."

"I don't think it's a good idea."

"Phad.."

"No.."

"Phad.. If you're worried of my safety, then you can wait there for me. I'll inform you once I'm outside the house and keep the phone on call until I reach you."

"What's the hassle for?"

"I really want to start walking around.."

"What's going on?"

"I just feel more relieved and calm after walking in the morning.. I wish I can start that habit nicely.."

Then a screaming silence came.. He must've wish to squeeze me for more answers..

"Just listen to me.."

"That's all? That's your reason?"

"Yeah.."

"Fine.. Keep your words, okay? We'll do that call every morning.."

"Yeah.."

"Anything else?"

"Nothing, bye.."

"Bye.."

I know it's wrong. I know but.. I don't want them to see me differently. To treat me like someone else.. Tomorrow is Monday and I know I have to make up my mind..

My hand reached for the bottle of pills and transferred it to a portable medicine kit before hiding them inside my bag and took a wooden box from my study table..

I was nervous..

The envelope containing my results were still scattered on the floor which was left for who knows how long and I know not a pinch of my heart wants to read any detail about it.

I open the box containing a customized tiny key..

Even I didn't have a clue what's this for not until Mom shows me how..

I walk to my dresser and settled comfortably in front of my mirror while scanning my collar.. My fingers were trembling but I have to try it now before I make a decision..

I was afraid..

They told me once I get used to it, we'll change it into steel..