Messed Up || Chanlix

Chapter 3

It was Monday morning, and Chan was getting ready for school. Him and Felix haven't spoken at all since the incident that happened Friday night. Chan can't even recall seeing Felix not even once after what had happened. Chan presumed Felix had gone to Changbin's house for the weekend, but was soon proven wrong when Felix walked into the bathroom. 

Chan was brushing his teeth and minding his own business until he saw a familiar figure in the reflection of the mirror. Felix looked frightened the second Chan locked eyes with his reflection, but quickly pushed that feeling to the side. Chan watched his younger brother slowly approach him. He didn't dare turn around to look at the boy's actual figure. He kept his eyes locked on him through the mirror. 

He felt Felix's presence get closer. He quickly tensed up when he felt Felix's hand on his shoulder. They kept intense eye contact through the mirror, never once breaking it. "W-what do you want, whore?" Chan scowled. Felix's grip on his older brother's shoulder tightened the second he called him a whore. Felix slowly leaned into Chan's ear, his eyes still locked with him. "Sorry for the other day." He seductively apologized, yet there was a tint of nervousness in his voice. Chan watched a small blush form on his younger brother's cheeks. "It won't ever happen again." Felix's lips had lightly touched Chan's ear. Chan felt a shiver travel down his spine. "See you at school... virgin." He slowly spoke. He licked up Chan's ear, eyes still locked with his in the mirror. 

Felix slowly licked up Chan's ear, and traveled down to his brother's earlobe. He lightly sucked on it before taking the flesh gently into his teeth. Chan's whole body felt like it was on fire. He was too afraid to even move. This was the most intimate they had ever gotten. Chan knew it was wrong, truly it was very wrong, but why does it feel so right? Why did Chan crave more from his little brother. Chan unwillingly released a loud moan, feeling Felix's teeth lightly nibbling at the soft flesh. Before he could even collect his bearings, Felix was gone. Chan splashed ice cold water onto his face to hopefully wake up from what felt like a dream. Chan didn't want to accept the fact that this was reality. He was too afraid of what would happen if this was actually a reality. 

Chan quickly drove to school and made his way to first period. He desperately tried avoiding not only his brother, but his friends too. Felix was shamefully the only thing on his mind all day. He couldn't focus on his school work which was unusual for him. Chan often did his school work regardless of what was happening in his life. His education was most important. It was something he valued tremendously, yet he didn't bother doing any of his assignments or notes for any of his classes that day. 

It was the last bell of the day, signaling that it was time for everybody to go home. Chan quickly gathered all his belongings and made his way to his car located in the student parking lot. He was shocked when he saw his little brother standing there waiting for him quietly. "Why are you here? Where is Jisung and Minho?" Chan questioned. Minho and Jisung were the ones who normally took Hyunjin, Changbin and him to and from school each morning. "Couldn't make it. They had shit to do." Felix rolled his eyes at his brother's dumb question. 

"Stop being a little bitch or I won't take you home." Chan spat once he noticed Felix's attitude. Felix didn't bother responding which wasn't normal for him. Normally he would quickly spit something back at his older brother, but he seemingly wasn't himself currently. Chan noticed and sighed, "Get in." was all he said before hopping into the driver's seat and starting the car. They drove in awkward silence for majority of the ride. Felix thankfully killed the silence by turning on the radio and blasting music, but the music was horrible. 

"Can you turn that shit down a little? That music is so shitty, it's making my ears bleed." Chan snapped. For some reason Chan was even more pissed off at his brother than usual. Maybe it was because of the recent events that had taken place between the two. Chan couldn't even look at his little brother anymore without seeing memories of his naked body, which was deeply engraved into his brain. Chan was mad because he couldn't make out any of the feelings that hit him like a truck in just three days. In just three days, everything seemingly changed, and Chan hated it more than ever. The sexual tension between the boys made them both feel tense. Chan reacted that only way he could, by being angrier than usual. 

"Oh, shut up! This music is fucking great. You just lack taste, virgin!" Felix shot back. Chan angrily slammed on the breaks and stared at his brother with nothing but hate in his eyes. "Call me a virgin again, and I swear to god I will beat the shit out of you!" 

"You idiot! You stopped in the middle of the road! Go, dammit! There are people behind us." Felix anxiously said. 

"Fuck you. I don't want to hear another fucking word from you for the rest of the day, got it?!" Chan sped off. Felix surprisingly kept his mouth shut for the rest of the car ride. Chan was pissed off. Chan was confused. Chan was angry. He desperately wanted to ask Felix what the fuck he was thinking when doing what he did, but was too much of a coward to do so.  Chan was desperate for answers, but was too scared to even approach his brother on the matter. Would he ever be ready to ask him?