my Writing

checkmate, youll never read my pokerface

You dont fucking love me, quit lying with those words. I trusted you with my hurt I told you my pain and you made it worse. You acted like I was stupid, like I was enough. You act all different in front of your friends cuz you think it makes you look tough. All that I had and all that I said, you still took that bitch to bed. They say that once a good girls gone bad shes bad for good, and I know what they mean now. I'm so happy I didnt tell you shit that would hurt my reputation too badly. Go ahead and run your mouth, ill sit here and let you let me down. Cuz you showed me how much I meant to you and I told you how much I wanted to be. I'd call you at work and just say smile so you would have a better day. I fucking tried I really did and it hurts that you still wanna act like a fucking kid, it shows how much I meant, those words that I said keep them in your head and when you think about playing with another bitches feelings I hope that shit haunts you and eat you alive. All this time you could never say I didn't try. I told you my pain I told you my story ot didn't matter cuz you didn't wanna be lonely. You didn't want to feel the sting of knowing that relationships would ruin you. Co dependency is a top 10 peev of mine, cuz you can see all of this person through their dependency they feel. They develop characteristics of the ones they're attached to... you were dependent on me but I was never dependent on you. Fuck do I look like to you? I'm not an "option" cuz im not a fool I dont like getting played but if this is how you wanna play it, bitch checkmate. Your move the game is in your hands, I hope you get nervous and your palms start to sweat, I hope you think of each move second guessing as to what ill do to next. Just keep in mind, I know your head but you'll never know mine, lower your cards even in the slightest, cuz you'll let go of that poker face and lose it all. Just make sure to call me so I can burn it all down. I hope to see you lose just to see how much ill gain, I hope my words repeat in your head again and again til you cant sleep thanks to those dreams of me. Let my words resonate within you and just know you'll never hear my voice again. You can remember it all but just keep in mind all the trouble you got into, you may not think it, but your pokerface has failed. I see right through you. Through your eyes to your soul. There has never been a good intention in there. Keep my words and lose some fear, you can cry... just know ill never be there. Never again will I have your back for you to play me like im a pawn. I am the queen and ill take all of your men down. Checkmate bitch, your poker face just turned to a frown. Don't let your guard down, I see right through it. Don't change your mind now cuz that would be stupid. You could never have me like you want, cuz while you walk around town missing me I could be on another guys arm. I'm everything you wanted but im everything you lost. You weren't what I needed but youre what I got. You dont get that i dont get attached, you dont understand that I wont walk away last. I'm first to leave and last to stay so dont blame me for walking away, blame yourself for letting your pokerface down. You left your guard down and you got hurt, you're just making matters worse. Give me time and we'll be fine, ride my ass you'll never see me again. When did you decide im stupid? Cuz thats when I decided that you're clueless. Cmon now dude, your move. I took your rook, your pawn and your queen. You're move now, bitch checkmate.