I got you

Part 14

The sun burned your face making you open one eye and covering your face with your right arm. Your body was aching from sleeping on the couch, even though you wouldn't call it "sleep". After spending most of the night awake, not comfortable at all since you were still wearing the clothes you had on the day before, trying to process what happened, and crying your heart out, it was perfectly normal for you to feel like that. As you tried to sit up on the couch, the sound of the room door opening made your heart skip a beat. Tom walked slowly into the living room, keeping his eyes on the floor and saying nothing. 

"You didn't had to sleep here" he mumbled glancing at you getting no response from you. You got up, and passed by him, going into the room. "What are you doing?" he asked following you. He rushed over you as you took one of your bags from the closet "Wait. Fuck. No." He stuttered while trying to grab your arm, but as you pushed his hands away he stopped and stood still looking at you. "What are you doing Y/N?".

"I'm leaving" you whispered as you folded your clothes into the bag.

"No. Please. Let's talk.." his voice became raspy, almost as he had lost his control over it. 

"You said it yourself. We don't have anything to talk about Tom" you kept your voice calm, in fact, you didn't feel angry, just...sad. Like someone had run you over with a truck.

"Please. Let's just talk" he said as he grabbed your arm pulling you closer to him.

"Fucking let me go" you shouted. He immediately took a step back, taking one hand to his hair. His eyes were trying to held some tears, and his cheeks full-on red.

"I didn't mean any of that" he whispered.

"Oh really? So you don't think I'm just... loving the life you're giving me? Without having to work hard... What do you think I am? Some kind of gold digger? I'm just using you right Tom?" you spat glancing at him "You know what? I was right. I shouldn't ever have come with you. This was all a fucking mistake." You could feel your chest burning, your tears running down your cheeks.

"You can't leave. You can't leave me please..." he whispered looking at you still packing your bags.

"Why not? Oh right. Cause if I leave you won't be able to look like a good guy in the press right? This perfect relationship... Right... I get it" you turned to him making him stand straight. "You know what. I'm done Tom. I left everything behind to come here with you, I left college, my friends, my gigs, everything. Just to be with you when you asked me to. I never left you. Always by your side, whether it was in the studios, in interviews, photoshoots, red carpets, you name it! I even agreed and forgave you after you lied to me, and used me as a PR stunt. Fucking Christ!!! And what do I get in return?! A fucking childish attitude, with some jealous comments, and I get to know, that you feel that I'm using you and your fucking money!!!!" you could see his lips shaking, his hands extended as he was waiting for you to grab them "So why can't I leave Tom?".

"Because I love you. And you love me..." he whispered.

"No. You wouldn't say shit like that if you actually loved me." you shook your head "But you're right. I do love you. But I don't deserve this Tommy" tears felt down of his eyes as you used his nickname, but you just turned around closing your bag and storming out of the room.

"Where are you gonna go?" he followed you "Please stay... Please...".

"I'll take care of myself. I can't stay here Tom. You are the love of my life, no doubts, but you need to grow the fuck up. And I tried to be there for you, I supported you through every little thing, even if it affected me negatively, but I can't do this anymore..." you said, as you got out, closing the door behind you. You stoped as you walked out of the building looking around not knowing exactly what to do, but you decided to start walking away while pulling out your phone.

"Hm... Hello" a sleepy voice answer on the other side of the phone.

"Can I come over?" you asked quietly.

"Sure... I'll make some coffee".

As the door opened you felt your tears coming down your face, letting the bags fall to the floor. Zendaya pulled you closer without saying a word stroking your hair gently. 

"Shit I'm sorry" you mumbled against her chest.

"It's okay... c'mon... " she said grabbing your hand and taking you to the couch before handing you a cup of coffee. "What happened?" she asked sitting next to you.

"Tom happened... He just.. Snapped Z." you whispered wiping the tears out of your face "I went to grab a coffee with Sebastian yesterday while Tom was filming, and he got all weird, and when I got home, he wasn't there... He started to ignore my texts, and when he got home, all fucking drunk, he said that I basically was using him, like... I was using him for the money, and the good life he's giving me".

"Are you for real right now?!" she said frowning.

"Yes. So I just left. And told him we were done" you stuttered.

"As you should Y/N! That's not fair! He's an ass! Wait 'till I talk to him" She sounded completely pissed. "You actually left your life for him." 

"Don't. Don't say anything to him!" you begged. "I just need to back off right now".

"So.. What are you gonna do?" she whispered leaning in closer and pulling you closer to her wrapping within her arms.

"I guess... I'm gonna go home..."

"Home?" she asked confused. "Home where?".

"London. I can't be here...." you mumbled. "I'll go back to my parent's house, stay there for a while maybe...".

She stood still, not letting you go. This was the right thing to do. You couldn't take it anymore. And staying in NY would only make the odds of running into Tom higher, Tom or any other person he got along with.

"I'm gonna miss you... you know?" she smiled.

"Hey... You can always visit... I'll be happy to introduce my girlfriend to my parents" you laughed feeling lighter.

"Yeah I know. We should actually make an announcement telling people we're engaged".

"Yeah, we should" you nodded while taking out your phone and ignoring all the texts and missed calls from Tom. In a click, a plane ticket was bought. 

It would all be over soon.