I got you

Part 19

As your chest began to slightly burn, you decided to sit up and started to put your clothes on making him look at you "What are you doing?" he mumbled.

"Just... Putting my clothes on" you said not even looking at him.

"Y/N.. c'mon. Don't do this.." he said sitting up as well "We just had an amazing moment...Sorry if I said I missed you" he whispered.

"Tom this wasn't even supposed to happen... We are not telling anyone about it okay?" you looked at him for the first time while buttoning your jeans.

"I wasn't going to. But... We are actually not gonna talk about it?".

"There's nothing to talk about..." you sighed putting your hair on a messy ponytail and resting your back against the couch, as he put on his jeans.

"You were the one who said that we're adults... C'mon. You know we should talk about it" he said turning to you.

"Okay then. Let's talk" you spat looking into his eyes and crossing your arms.

"Okay..." he whispered licking his lip "Why didn't you answered my calls?" his voice was cracking, his shanks closed into fists slightly shaking.

"'cause I didn't have to" 

"Bullshit" he shook his head "That's just bullshit. You're telling me that after a 5-year relationship, it was just totally fine for you to leave and not even talking to me afterward?" he raised his eyebrow as his voice got a bit higher making your lips begin to shake.

"No Tom. It wasn't fine. But... There was nothing I could actually do".

"Stop with the bullshit Y/N. C'mon!" he yelled making you tear up.

"FINE! I couldn't stay. It was being too much Tom. And I couldn't talk to you, or even listen to your voice.. 'cause if I did, I would just come back to all of this" you yelled back pointing at him with your index. "And I had to stay away! You know I didn't deserve any of the stuff you said to me".

Tom closed his eyes licking his lower lip shaking his head "I'm sorry..." he whispered "Y/N I actually never believed in anything of what I said that night. I never wanted for you to leave..."

"I guess" you sighed "I guess we were just kids Tom... Highschool couple and that just doesn't work... We both needed to grow the fuck up, and I wouldn't be able to do that while being with you and following everywhere like a little puppy. It wasn't right. "You said making him laugh sarcastic witch somehow made anger take over control of your body. "Why the fuck are you laughing?! You didn't seem that unhappy after two weeks of me leaving, with all the booze, and fucking girls all around you".

"Shut up Y/N" he said between his teeth.

"No. I'm not gonna shut up Tom. It was amazing to see that after two weeks, you had completely moved on and it was no secret the fucking prick you became."

"FUCK YOU!" He yelled getting up looking down at you with tears in his eyes "You don't have the right to say that! You fucking left Y/N. You just left me. These last 3 years...Were probably the worst fucking 3 years of my life. You went back home, I had to stay here, at the same apartment where you used to live with me, I had to see you on socials with your new little boyfriend, I had to talk about you in every fucking interview I went to just to tell them you were no longer part of my life. I knew I was supposed to be in the most amazing moment of my life, with the avengers movies out and shit, but you weren't there with me. I just wanted to get home and tell you about it, but nooooo" he laughed coming closer to you making you shrunk "You were living your amazing new life with your little boyfriend and new jobs".

"So I'm the bud guy now?! Do you even remember the things you said? Do you even remember the way you started treating me?!" Suddenly you got up facing him "No! 'cause the only person who you care about is you! I felt like shit Tom! You made me feel like shit. Somehow I looked at you and didn't see the guy I fucking loved anymore!"

"loved..." he mumbled resting his eyes on the floor avoiding eye contact.

"IT'S BEEN 3 FUCKING YEARS THOMAS!" you yelled.

"Well good for you Y/N. I'm glad you're doing well..." he said tears running down his cheeks.

"I'm sorry I hurt you. But you also broke my heart" you felt your voice cracking as he laid his eyes on you again.

"I know. And that was why I tried to call you over and over again. I wanted to apologize!" he said making your stomach turn. "You just...We were Tom and Y/N. You were the only girl I've ever cared about. And I hate myself for hurting you. But you didn't even give me a chance Y/N..."

"Tom we need to let go... all of this... It's exhausting" you said rubbing the palm of your hand on your forehead.

He just nodded before coming so close you could feel his breath in your skin. "So. You're telling me, that what just happened... It didn't mean anything to you?" he mumbled his eyes shooting red. You didn't say a word, maybe because you couldn't even move your lips. "Nothing at all. It was just a mistake right?" he asked placing his hands on your waist. 

"Don't do that" you begged as he used his finger to clean the tears off your cheeks.

"You know I'll never be just anyone to you. And you'll never be just anyone for me Y/N. There's no way we will ever be able to just be complete strangers." He let a small smile cross his face before pressing his lips against yours. But this time it wasn't just lust. Your lips were slowly moving, as you tried to get your body as close as possible to his.

"I knew it" you jumped as Harrison walked into the living room leaning against the wall.

"Haz" you mumbled turning to him.

"I don't like it. Not at all" he said making Tom roll his voice.

"Dude fuck off" Tom's voice was raspy as he turned face to face to Harrison.

"No. Sorry. This is... Whatever" he said turning his back and going into his room.

You stood still looking at Tom panicking as he just tried to kiss you again "No. Stop" you mumbled wiping your tears off. "Can we just be friends?" you asked as he nodded with a small smile across his face before you walked away going after Harrison.