His Equal

Honesty

Asano is a guy who will do whatever it takes to find out something about someone. I'm pretty sure he already looked into me by now, but he couldn't find anything worthwhile about me. That's the whole reason he's still sticking around me, that's just obvious. I knew the moment that I ate in front of him, he would immediately ask questions about my lack of appetite.

"What do you want to know, Asano?"

"Do you just have a small appetite? Or are you recovering from a disorder of some sort?"

I looked at the sandwich in front of me, noting how much I really ate. It's not much by most people's standards, but I'm recovering. I'm getting better, and that's all that matters to me now.

"Yeah, I'm recovering from a eating disorder. I used to be disgusted at the sight of food, and I would gag. Although, I never did it to lose weight. I just hated eating food at one point, it got really bad. But, I've gotten better a little bit. But I can only take in small portions of food at the moment, since my body rejects large amounts of it."

I wasn't sure how Asano would react to hearing that from me. Don't get me wrong, I'm not entirely ashamed of what I went through. Because it helped me grow as a person, and that's what I needed to go through to get to the point I am at now. Just, most people usually have pretty severe reactions to finding out I'm recovering from an eating disorder.

"Are you embarrassed by that? The eating disorder, I mean."

I looked out the window, staring at the now crimson sky. I smiled, taking in the busy city outside my window, and I shook my head.

"No, I'm not. Don't get me wrong, it wasn't a pretty phase in my life. But I'm not embarrassed by it, because if I didn't go through it, I don't think I would have gained the empathy that I have now. I used to be a different person, with different goals in life. But now, things are different because of it, and I'm alright with that."

I turned to look at Asano, who didn't look like he was going to dissect every little thing I say at the moment. No, it was completely different than that. He never looked directly into my eyes before, for multiple reasons. Cause he didn't want me to read him, cause he saw me as lower than him, and maybe even more than that. 

But now, he is looking me in the eyes, to show that he respects me. Not many people gain Gakushu Asano's respect. I wasn't sure what that meant for himself, but I hope that this piece of me, shows him that there are more to people than just their intelligence. There will always be more to people than just their IQ.

"You tend to get lost in your own thoughts whenever I'm around, huh Asano?"

He blinked in surprise, before he scoffed and his barrier came back up. But for that fraction of a second, I saw something that wanted to come out. I saw that heart of his trying to poke through, but it's going to be awhile before that even happens.

"No, you're just imagining things. I was just trying to eat my sandwich, don't get your hopes up."

I chuckled at him, shaking my head at his stubbornness. He's definitely going to be a tough cookie to crack. But with some time, I know that I can do it. I just need to have the patience to do it, and that wasn't hard to do when it came to this guy. 

I looked at him, and I couldn't help but grin as he pretended like he wasn't lost in his own head. I leaned over towards him, playfully nudging his shoulder with a grin on my face.

"You can admit it, I'm not like most girls! But you can't go falling for me, that would ruin your reputation, now wouldn't it?"

He arched a brow at my teasing, while I just grinned at him. His tense form became relaxed, before he began chuckling. I felt my grin grow wider, and I too began laughing with him, finally knowing what his laugh sounded like. He definitely should laugh more often, such a shame that he doesn't laugh that often. 

Soon, he took his leave, which left me alone with my dark hospital room. It was rather empty, no gifts really, besides what Asano brought to me. I'm not surprised or anything like that, just feels lonely. I shook my head, laying down, staring up at the blank ceiling.

Wasn't expecting to get run over by that car, that's for sure. But, it did give me time away from most people, which was relieving in a way. I wasn't on the go, I didn't have any plans, I just got the chance to sit and just, breathe. It's something I apparently needed badly, and I'm glad I got hit by that car.

But I wasn't expecting Asano to come to see me. I thought he would just give his condolences when I came back to school, since he doesn't really do anything like that for the other kids at our school. It was kind of nice to see someone though, and just talk to someone else for a change. 

I smiled, shaking my head at what I thought. The idea of becoming friends with Asano was just a weird picture in my head, and I'm not sure how that would have worked honestly. But, it would be interesting to see him just letting loose for once. Maybe one day, he will finally realize that he doesn't need to play the role of perfect leader, just to get far in life. 

Who knows what will happen next with Asano? All I know is, is that he just needs to be the real authentic version of himself. If he needs help along the way, then I'll help him to the best of my abilities.