Fix My Heart

Chapter Four

New York ~ The apartment

Finn, I'm pregnant. Those were the words that kept swirling round his head. Taunting him and making him feel like he was about to throw up. Oh god dammit. Why does this always happen to him? His mind flashed back to his Sophomore year, when he was standing by the lockers and talking to Quinn, who was wearing a similar expression to Rachel right now. Oh god. What the hell was he gonna do? He'd literally just figured out what he was going to do with his life and now he was a father? This was a joke right? Some cruel, sick joke. Any minute now Rachel was going to burst out laughing, making fun of him. Or it was a nightmare. He was just about to wake up and he'd back in Ohio and he'd laugh slightly, text Rachel and then go back to bed. It had to be one of those. This couldn't be real. This couldn't be happening. Not to him. Not again. 

"Finn, please say something, you're scaring me." Rachel said sadly. He looked at her and saw how broken and terrified she was. And yes, he was so, so scared and he felt like he was going to be sick but right now, he had to push his worries to the side and be there for Rachel. She needed him now more than ever. He didn't matter anymore. 

"Am I....am I the father?" 

"I don't know. You could be but, um, it could also be Brody's." Finn nodded slowly as his stomach churned. "Why didn't you tell me?" 

"Saying it made it seem real and I just wanted to live in denial. Santana only found out a few days ago and she helped me." Rachel answered. 

"Are you going to keep it?" 

"Yes. I.....I'm so sorry. I'm so, so sorry." Rachel replied before bursting into tears. She collapsed into Finn's embrace and began to sob onto his shoulder. He squeezed his eyes closed before wrapping his arms round her and slowly rubbing circles onto her back. He just couldn't believe this was happening. It didn't feel real. Rachel was pregnant. There was a tiny human being growing inside her. Would it look like her? Would it have her brown curls or big eyes that were like pools of hot chocolate? Would it have her bright, beautiful smile or her adorable laugh? Would it be able to sing and dance? Or would it be more like him? That was if he was even father. That thought made his stomach drop, making him feel even worse. Because even if he was scared about being a father, he was even more scared about not being one. 

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Ohio~ The April Rhodes Auditorium 

Marley stood on the stage with her arms wrapped around herself, feeling guilty and scared. She was so, so terrified that Jake wouldn't show. Because he probably wouldn't. If the roles were reversed, she would hate Jake right now and definitely wouldn't come just because he told her. She would never have forgiven him. And that's why she felt so guilty. Marley was obviously guilty that she had kissed Ryder in the first place. She should never have done that. But if Jake was kind enough to forgive her and they got back together, Marley would still feel awful. Because she knew that she wouldn't have forgiven him if he kissed someone else. Maybe she didn't deserve Jake. Maybe she should just leave and give up on trying to win him back. But she should at least try, right? Because she did love him and she was sorry for what she did. They had been so happy before and they could happy again. Could she really just give up on what they had? 

"You said you wanted to see me." Marley spun round and dropped her arms to her sides as she spotted Jake walking down the auditorium stairs. 

"You came." Marley said with a ghost of a smile on her face. He shrugged slightly. 

"Well you did tell me to." He replied. 

"Yeah, I just wasn't sure if you'd come or not."

"Well I did. So, um, why am I here exactly?"