All of me (Part of Me Book 2)

Chapter 1

Why is it that for 7 years, I just can’t let this feeling go? Why is it so hard to accept that I let her go?

[Rush’ POV]

            They say when you love someone, sacrifice is easy, well, not that easy, but easy as in you will do everything no matter what just to protect them. Well, okay, I’ll put it this way; will you sacrifice for someone you hate? Maybe you will, but it is NEVER as in NEVER that easy than sacrificing for the one you love. And if you do sacrifice for them, they say, you will be happy. Then…why am I not happy for letting my pig go? Why is it that for 7 years, I can’t just let this feeling go? Why is it so hard to accept that I let her go? That I push her away?

Well, people always regret everything in the end, when they know that they lost something because of a certain decision and action. But, regret, a damn word as it is, never changes what we already did, what we already said. We are all aware that “nasa huli ang pagsisisi”, but guess what? We still act without thinking twice or thrice before we do it. Well, it’s human’s nature. We need to experience pain first before our stubborn brain gets its lesson. We always hear others’ experiences but we didn’t learn from them, we just hear it but never listen. We just learn when we experience it. Learning from others’ experience, they say, is the wisest learning but, hey, admit it, sometimes we forgot them, coz just like what I’ve said earlier, sometimes, we just hear but never listen. And when pain is there, we end up saying, “Sana…”

7 years earlier…

“We need to talk.” It is the last thing that Yvonne’s father told me before he hangs up. Brynne texted me earlier that she’ll stay here again tomorrow. Hindi parin sila maayos sakanila, especially her and Xyril. I hate seeing her so broken especially that I always see her so guarded and strong. I am happy that she only shows it to me but this side of her is the last thing that I want to see.

I looked at my phone once again, Yvonne’s dad said that he’ll just text me when and where are we going to meet. I already have a feeling where this is about. Gusto niya talaga akong ipakasal sa anak niya. Okay lang naman sakin e…dati…noong hindi ko pa talaga nakilala si Brynne pero I did. Nakilala ko na siya. I’ve fallen in love with her.Nawala ako sa pagmumuni ng magvibrate ang phone ko sa kamay ko, and it shows that Yvonne’s dad already texted me. I stand up and grabbed my wallet and keys and head to the place where he wants to meet me.

After 20 minutes of driving, nakarating na rin ako sa meeting place. I found him easily and sat in front of him.

“I know that you know what this is all about, right?” he immediately asked. He didn’t bother to ask me if I want coffee or what. Well, I didn’t expect it either way so it doesn’t matter. He doesn’t like me from the start and he made sure that I know it.

I nodded in response to his question. Sumandal nalang ako sa kinauupuan ko and crossed my arms, looking determined that a freaking no is my answer to what he wants from me. I’ll never marry anyone beside my Biik. Kung noon, nagi-guilty pa nila ako dahil sa responsibilidad ko, ngayon, hindi na.

“Don’t give me that look, Rush. You know that your son needs a happy fam-“ I raised my right hand to cut him. Good thing that he does.

“Yes, I know that he does but no matter what, we’ll never be a happy family. Yvonne never loved my son. And I don’t love your daughter.” I can see his jaw clenched when I told him that I don’t love his daughter. Well, it’s better to spit the truth in his face to make him stop his bullshit.

“So, you really love this Ybarra girl, huh?” he asked stirring his tea in front of him. I nodded even though I’m not sure if he sees it but it doesn’t matter. He knows the answer. After some minutes he still didn’t look at me. I was about to walk away when he talked.