All of me (Part of Me Book 2)

Chapter 3

Maybe you saved me from misery but you trapped me in mystery- a mystery that I unfold and opened a feeling that I once closed.

 

[Xynne’s POV]

Why am I so stubborn? Why am I so curious about something that should’ve stayed a mystery? Rush walked away from me and pushed me away 7 years ago to hide something. I know that and I accepted that. But why is it that when I saw him again the mystery is pulling me to unfold it? Why can’t I just keep myself from that connection?

2 weeks passed since I met him again. And guess what? I spent those 2 weeks investigating. Investigating a past that I swore I won’t mind again. I learned something that he tried to keep from me. I knew something that I should’ve known years ago. And I didn’t expect that the answer that I needed is easy to find out.

Rush Kiel, you’re so stupid. You broke us because of that. You chose a wrong battle. Maybe you saved me from misery but you trapped me in mystery- a mystery that I unfold and opened a feeling that I once closed. Now I think I’m stupider for the loath that I felt turned into something that is wrong. So wrong.

[Rush’ POV]

            “How ‘bout white? Wait…white again? Naah. I’ll pick black…Black…Black?? No. It’s dull…or cool? Wait- I never look dull! Tss. But no…not black. Another, Rush…Hmmm. Yel--low? WTH?! Since when did I have yellow in my wardrobe?! Damn! I’m going to-“

            “Seriously, papa! Pick anything already!!!!”

My son, Ry, shouted at me. Tss. He’s yelling like I’m not his father. This child. Tsk!

            “Wait a sec-“

            “C’mooooon!” he whined. “You’re choosing a shirt for 2 hrs and 45 minutes already! You act like a girl!” he added then he lay back on my bed full of shirts I rejected to wear.

2 hrs 45 minutes. Sh*t! I really act like a girl.

I just grabbed a white shirt and put it on with a black coat. I still look handsome, guys. No worries….wait. I mean, girls. Yeah girls. “Guys”. Pfft.

            “Finally!” Ry shouted exasperatedly and sat at the edge of the bed resting his elbows on his knees, while watching me wax my hair.

            “Pa” he called.

            “Yeah?” I answered while rubbing my chin and smiling at myself in the mirror.

I really am handsome, aren’t I?

            “Do you think Mommy Brynne misses me?” he asked seriously.

Mommy Brynne. I smiled at that.

I sat beside him and rested my arm on his shoulder.

            “She does, son.” I said reassuringly.

No matter what happened to us before, I know that what biik feels to my son will never change. I just hope her feelings for me didn’t change too.

            “How can you be so sure? Ngayon nga lang ulit kayo nagkita at nagkausap diba? At tsaka bakit hindi niya ako tinatanong kay Tita? I feel like she forgot me totally and I hate it.” He confessed and bowed down his head.

I pulled him closer to me. I wish I can tell him that his Mommy Brynne doesn’t want anything that is related to me so she cut him off too.

            “I don’t know, Ry.” I whispered and lied.