All of me (Part of Me Book 2)

Chapter 4

… it’s funny how our hearts share the same beat when for all we know, everything’s won’t last forever. COZ I CAN’T BE HIS, EVER.

 

[Xynne’s POV]

I am now on my way to the airport with the girls. To well, you know, welcome my sis- Xyril. 7 years past. 7 freaking years of torture for the both of us. Well, for me that is.

            “Stop shaking!” Bless laughed and tap my right leg.

            “Am not!” I yelled and looked at the car window.

            “Reaaallllyyyyyy? Xynne? Reallyyyyy?” Cams mocked and that’s the cue of the others to laugh.

Damn them. I’ve got tons to think of.

Like, what will I do when I see her? Am I going to hug her? What will I say? Am I going to say I miss her? Wait. Do I really miss her? If yes, then why am I nervous and not excited like the others? Oh…Right. Because she left them fine, while she left me nuts…on a hospital bed the day after I woke up. Great! Just great!

7 years earlier

            “Kambs.”

That’s the first thing I heard when I gain my consciousness. I tried to open my eyes wide to see but the light is blinding me.

            “Kambs, hey.” I heard her voice again. The voice that I missed. The voice that I grew up with. The voice of the person I dearly love.

I closed my eyes and tried to open it again. And thanks goodness.I finally adjusted with the light. Ugh. Damn, lights.

            “Thanks God!” Kambs said when I looked her in the eye and hugged me.

I want to hug her back but there is this feeling that is hinding me back.

            “Xynne. Goodness!” I heard the voice of my mother and father behind her then she let me go. And right there and then, I feel the lost. Not just physically but emotionally, I think? I remember again why I’m here. The accident. The crash. The…leaving. The goodbyes. The broken promises.

            “Ma- Pa-“ that’s all I can mutter. I am so damn thirsty! I want to cry. I look at Ka- Xyril then I want to cry more.

Mama and Papa sat side by side on the bedside. Mama is brushing my hair with tears in her eyes and Papa is holding my hand tightly silently crying.

I hate this. I don’t want this. Ayokong umiiyak ang pamilya ko ng dahil sakin. I don’t want to be a burden. I never wanted this. But look where I am, look what I did. Hooray for stupidity and recklessness!

            “Are you thirsty?” Mama asked after a while and I nodded. She walks over a table and grabs a glass of water. I looked around and saw Neil and a doctor walking inside.

            “Les.” Neil said in soft tone and rushed to me crying.

Oh God. What did I do?

I want to cry so damn hard but it seems like I am so dry that even my eyes can’t explode the tears.

The doctor checked everything about vitals and asked me this and that, and I just nodded or shook my head. Then he talked with my parents after they gave me a drink outside.

            “Les. Tanga.” Neil said while playing with my fingers. He’s not looking at me but I know I hurt him too.

            “Wh-what’s Les, huh? Skull?” I asked.