Determined

Chapter 12

HEESOO's POV:
'I'm sorry HeeSoo-ah that is not possible' papa yg said. I had come to ask him to change the rappers of my comeback.
'Wae?' I'm sure my comeback would be more successful with Chanyeol and Kris.' I argued 'Besides they will attract more people because of their crazy good looks!' I had to admit i had a tiny crush on those towers. Who wouldn't? They were very handsome.
'The rumors are already out of us doing a comeback with them. If we change them now it will effect our image and relations with SM. And most of the song is already recorded. There's too much at steak' he explained.
'Oh. Guere' my head slumped in disappointment. I really couldn't continue this comeback with them.
'Mianhe HeeSoo, if you would have told me earlier it would have been easier' his expression emitted concern. I knew he would do it if he could so i couldn't blame him.
'Gwaenchanha! I'll go now. Annyeong!' I said and made my way out of his office before he could reply. There was so much going in my head i couldn't comprehend it at the moment.
Before i knew it i found myself at unnie's rehearsal room.

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Tao's POV:
So this is it. She just left. She didn't forgive me. She turned her back on me.
She changed. And it's all my fault.

I was on my knees. I stared at the floor. My mind was trying to comprehend what just happened. I felt helpless, frustrated. I wanted to scream and punch something. But at the same time i wanted to cry.
So this is how HeeSoo felt when i left her. I balled my fists. I was angry, not at anyone else but at myself. How could I be so blind at that time. How could i be so stupid. And i how could i expect her to forgive me? I wanted her to scream at me, not act cold. I wanted her to cry it all, let her frustration out, not lock it all up. She was so strong now. She didn't need me. I needed her, but... I didn't deserve her.... Did i ever deserve her at all?
I felt a hand on my shoulder. I didn't even bother looking up, i knew it was kai. I didn't even want to deal with him right now.
'She'll come around man' i scoffed getting back on my feet. I shoved his hand away and walked away without even looking at him. But suddenly i stopped dead in my tracks. Before i knew it, i was lashing out at Kai with my words.
'She'll come around?' I scoffed again. 'ARE YOU SERIOUS JONGIN? You really have the guts to say that after what you've done to her? What i've done to her?' I turned around and glared at him. My blood was boiling. He looked surprise to see me this way but i didn't care.
'SHE COMPLETELY BROKE! SHE LOST HERSELF! SHE DIED DAILY BECAUSE OF US AND YOU STILL SAY SHE'LL COME AROUND? WHY WOULD SHE? WHY SHOULD SHE?' I screamed. Letting all my anger out.
'T-tao? Chill down man' he mumbled.
'CHILL DOWN? Don't fucking tell me to chill! I lost my best friend because of you' i yelled, my voice cracked a bit.
'Because of me? You came to me... Never forget that. You exposed her not me.' His eyes turned emotionless and his voice was cold. 'You broke her just as much as i did, so don't blame me' he spat.
He was right... Why was i blaming him. It was my fault too not only his.
'S-she didn't deserve this... She didn't deserve any of this' i found myself crying.
'We all go through stuff we don't deserve, it's called life' he said and with that he walked away
'I hate you kai' i mumbled.
'Huh the feeling is still mutual' i heard him say. That plastic! I actually thought he was my friend.
My head was spinning, i felt like throwing up...
'Unnie told me not to trust everyone' HeeSoo's childhood voice ran through my head.

[FLASHBACK]

'Tao-ssi?' HeeSoo poked my cheek.
'Hmm?' I looked at her. We sat at the beach, adoring the sea after playing in the water for hours.
'Do you trust me?'
'Nae! Ofcourse i do' i beamed a smile at her.
'How many other people do you trust?' She continued asking.
'Lots of people, wae?' I looked at her confused.
'Well unnie told me not to trust everyone' She averted her gaze from me to the sea. 'She said people are not always as they seem, they are always looking for opportunities to stab you in the back'
'Omo jinja? Your unnie is so wise' she let out a chuckle
'Haha nae! But tao-ssi? I can trust you right?' She turned serious.
'Ofcourse!!!' I assured her.
'Pinky promise?' She held up her pinky finger making me chuckle. Ahhh this girl.
'Pinky promise' i said hooking my pinky finger with hers.

[FLASHBACK ENDED]

Your unnie was right HeeSoo.. If only she told you not to trust me either. You wouldn't suffer this much. mianhe HeeSoo. For everything. Mianhe.
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