Determined

Chapter 13

HeeSoo's POV:
It had been a week since Tao confronted me. It felt like a healing bruise had been ripped open once again.
I sat in the corner of my dark room, hugging my knees to my chest. The tears flowed out without my permission. For once in my life i didn't stop them. I let it all out.
The throbbing pain rose within my chest. I wanted to escape it somehow. I wanted to fade away. I wanted to disappear just like that.
'HeeSoo?' I heard a soft voice on the other side of the door. I ignored it, staring into the darkness as a series of new tears flowed down my face.
'HeeSoo-ah please open the door! You haven't eaten in 2 days' chaelin unnie continued. Eat? Could i eat? No. I already tried. But the lump in my throat made it impossible to swallow.
'I'm not hungry' i replied, my voice cracked.
'Dongsaeng i'm worried, we're all worried! Let me in please' she begged. I shook my head as if she could actually see me.
'No' i merely whispered. I shut my eyes tight. I pulled at the strands of my hair.
'NO!' I shouted frustrated. 'Just leave me alone! I have had enough! LEAVE ME ALONE for god sake' i screamed letting out my anger. 'Let me be' my voice turned into a whisper once more.
'HeeS-'
'Unnie jebal!' I begged. 'For now.. Let me be. Jebal!'
'Araseo' the disappointment was evident in her voice but i didn't care. All i wanted was to be left alone.

Chaelin's POV:
It killed me. It absolutely killed me inside seeing HeeSoo this way. She was suffering and i couldn't help her at all. I could do nothing. She didn't eat. She didn't talk to anyone. She didn't sleep. All she did was cry, locked up in her room.
I was afraid that she would end up doing something stupid. I couldn't afford losing her. But i was helpless, because i was at the wrong side of the door. Nothing could convince her to open it.
'HeeSoo please stay strong, for me' i whispered as i leaned my back against the door. I slowly slipped down to the ground.
I sat there for the rest of the night in hope for her to come out but nope.

'Unnie? Wakeup!' I felt minzy shake me awake. I must have dozed off.
'Did HeeSoo come out' i looked at her with hopeful eyes but the look on her face washed all my hopes away.
'Aish this girl' i balled my fists and gritted my teeth. 'I wish i could take away all her pain' my voice came out as a mumble. 'I can't take it anymore. I can't see her like this' tears threatened to escape my eyes.
I felt minzy's arms embrace me into a tight hug.
'She'll be fine unnie, she's a strong girl' that was the problem. Strong people always suffer the most.
'What if strength kills you' a weak cold voice spoke behind us. I turned around and my heart broke into a million pieces.
'HeeSoo' i tried to speak but my voice failed to come out. my sister stood infront of me. She looked more like a zombie than a human. She seemed skinny. Her hair was a mess. Her skin was as pale as porcelain and displayed no emotion at all. Her eyes were blood shot and black crescents formed beneath them.
The thing that caught my attention the most was the red scratches across her arms. Tears rimmed my eyes. The thing i was most afraid of became a reality. I wanted to run and hug her but my body seemed paralysed.

'I'm going to shower, i need to restart my work' she mumbled walking past me, showing no emotion. What had become of her. The soft, warm HeeSoo had become cold and hard. She was no longer alive inside. She had already died.
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Kai's POV

It had been a week since we were told that the comeback was 'postponed' as HeeSoo was not feeling well. Postponed. Yeah right. I was sure that it was called off all together. It was obvious HeeSoo was not willing to work with us.
As Tao said, why would she want to work with us? What benefit did she get from us? Nothing. I shouldn't have volunteered for this. I was hoping that i might be able make her forget the past. Make it up to her. Why? Well....

(FLASHBACK:)

'Yah kai-ssi? Did you hear about what happened to heeSoo? Hillarious man!' Taehyun laughed clutching his stomach.
My head snapped up to him.
'What exactly happened?' I raised my brow.
'Yoonhyun confronted her about her past infront of the whole school. She was so embarrassed that she left immediately' he said displaying the most evil grin.
'WHAT?' I shouted. 'Is she fucking crazy? She can't just do that'
'Woah man! Take a chil-'
' i will not take a chill pill, why did she do that' i balled my fists.
'Aw c'mon you did the same at any given opportunity'
Guilt downed upon me. I wanted to punch him but i knew he was right. I was tortured her everytime i saw her. My life long moto was to make her miserable. But what happened now? Did i pity her for being an orphan? Partly, yes. But mostly i now hated myself for thinking i had it worse than her. I didn't even know what she had been through. How could i be so blind.

(FLASHBACK ENDED)
Soon after than i broke up with yoonhyun and stopped hanging out with our group of 'friends'. I came closer to Tao, and actually considered him a good friend, though i made it seem like i didn't last week but i did.
My popularity fell, as i wasn't the 'bad boy' anymore. I mean, girls were still crazy about me because of my crazy good looks but i was not considered as the king-ka of the school.
'Kai' i was brought out of my thoughts. I turned around to find Tao standing at the door.
'What do you want' i narrowed my eyes at him. I was still annoyed at how he blamed me for everything that happen to HeeSoo. He was a major shareholder in causing her sufferings.
'SooMan hyung said we have to go to YG today. She's back' he looked down at the floor
'Hmm kay whatever. You can go away now'
'Fine. Just be there we have a tough schedule ahead' He said coldly, walking out before i could reply. I rolled my eyes.

So she's back huh? Wow. She's still willing to work with us. I still have a chance to make it up to her. I know she turned down Tao's apology, but i'm not Tao. I'm very persistent and i always get what i want.
I smirked internally. 'Better get going then' i thought and head out the door.

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