Tantamount

You Love What?

Song: Crazy = Genious - Panic at the disco!

I was woken up by loud knocks on my door and a muffled voice. I groaned, I was extremely comfortable and for the first time in a while I actually slept the whole night. I heard my door opening and my blanket was ripped from my body.

"COME ONE (Y/N)!!!! WE HAVE TITAN EXPERIMENTS TO TALK ABOUT!!!" a hand reached for my shoulder and as an instinct, I ended up twisting the person's wrist and pushing the person to my bed. My body turned and now I was with one hand still holding the stranger's wrist, straddling her hips, and I held my other arm so my forearm was against her neck. I ignored the pain that still invaded the wound in my leg.

"I don't like being touched." My voice was raspy and I barely opened my eyes feeling sleepy. Memories yesterday flooded my head. 'ah crap who am I straddling'. I opened my eyes a bit. The woman had glasses, light brown eyes, and dark brown hair tied up in an unkempt high ponytail with bangs parted down the middle. She was smiling? and blushing?

"ah yes sorry (y/n) I didn't mean to scare you! I was so excited to finally meet you!! I have a whole day planned for us today!!!."

"ah you're Hange, right? You're the one in charge of me." I got off her. "Sorry about that I'm not a morning person. I'll get ready fast so we can talk titans." I chuckled at my last statement feeling like it was such a weird thing to even talk about. I took the uniform I had been given and went to the shower, the woman stared at me almost bouncing in her spot. 'What a weirdo. I like her.'

After getting dressed I got out of my room and was attacked by a fast and loud force. It was her again.

"AHHHH I'M SO EXCITEDDD (Y/N) I WILL TELL YOU ALL ABOUT MY EXPERIMENTS AND-"

"Hange."

"Yes?"

"I need tea and breakfast. I get those things and I will gladly listen to your every word."

She dragged me downstairs to get breakfast and we sat at a table to eat.

"Hey shortie! can you give (y/n) some of your tea!!! she is like you! She won't function till she has her morning tea!!!" I choked on my food as I heard Hange talking to the fun-size Captain. I had found out that the shortie I met was in fact "humanity strongest" whatever that meant. While I didn't see the big deal about him ...yet... I didn't want to get in trouble. I turned to shortie who was glaring daggers at us while taking a sip of his tea on the table beside us. I gave him a lazy smile "Is she always this energetic at this hour? I don't think I will survive her." I chuckled to myself and as I ran my hands through my hair nervously and  turned to Hange.

"Hange I didn't wake up today and choose death so shut it. I really don't need to get trouble with shortie" I whispered at her. I tried to sound serious but the slight smile on my face made it obvious. I found Hange hilarious. We finished our food and got dragged outside by Hange. I thought about my missing morning tea and pouted while she rambled about things I didn't quite get.

"Wait I should probably slow down. So (y/n) what do you know about titans."

"They eat humans. That's about it, hell I don't even know what they look like."

Her face was indescribable at this point. It was a mix of terrified, surprised, baffled, horror, excitement? Her eyes had a crazy sparkle and for a second there I was actually scared of her.

The next 10 seconds were spent by me staring at her face, my brain tuned out her words but it seemed loud and exasperated.. or important? she was excited? Her arms wailed around and she jumped a bit on her feet.

"Hange?"

She abruptly stopped her movements while her arms were still up, it was a funny freeze frame.

"Yes?"

"I'm gonna need you to slow down okay? Love the enthusiasm but I can't keep up with everything you're saying right now."

"Right! hehe sorry. Okay, let's start with the basics."

She proceeded to explain how titans ate humans while they didn't need to. How there are different height titans and abnormal titans. She explained in detail how they could regenerate and the only way to kill them was by cutting the nape. While she explained how they looked like I couldn't help but cringe 'if they look like us they must be some ugly bitches'.

"ahhh I love titans!"

"You love what? really? why?" She had talked in detail about how they killed a lot of her comrades so needless to say I was confused by her statement. Also, I feel like eating people is a deal breaker right?

"Don't you find them fascinating? There's so much left to discover about them!"

I laughed as the light reflected on her glasses making her look like a mad scientist but I now understood her curiosity. There was indeed a lot we didn't know. Titans were indeed weirdly intriguing.

"Hey I just remembered, I am supposed to be on the next expedition right? When is that?"

She scratched her neck nervously and gave me an awkward smile. "Well, it's actually next week."

My hands ran through my hair yet again. It's a nervous habit at this point. "Then we better not waste any time." She spent the rest of the day explaining formations and facts about titans and while I knew the information was important I couldn't help but let my mind drift to the outside and what may lie beneath the walls (apart from the titans of course.) As Hange finished my lessons for today we headed to the cafeteria to eat dinner. We both got our food and Hange sat down at a table full of people, in my hungry state I didn't think much of it and took a seat beside her as she rambled about god knows what. As I ate I felt a cold gaze on me. With my mouth full I looked up right in front of me was Levi with his usually stoic face and a cup of tea in his hand which he held weirdly. I stopped chewing while both of my cheeks were full. He let out a tch sound and I gave him my best fake smile, ignoring his grumpy attitude. I kept eating while tuning out Hange's rant. 

"Can you believe (y/n) didn't even know how titans looked!!"

"she really didn't know?" One woman replied

I felt eyes on me and without lifting my eyes I responded feeling tired of all the socializing I've done today.

"It's not really like titans are something we worry about daily at the underground. Plus does it matter? For all I care, they could look like dragons and it wouldn't really change the fact that we gotta kill them so what they look like is only helpful to know what I gotta kill." I took the last bite of my meal and left the table feeling drained. Each step I took toward my bedroom made me realize how tired I really was and once my head hit the pillow I was fast asleep.

Hi!! thank you for reading! Been having a hard time thinking of how to slowly build this relationship with Levi! What would you guys like to see? I'll be reading the comments.