CH 18

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Y/N POV

Why must I always cry around him
Why must he always see me in my vulnerable state of mind

Why does he only show up when I'm suffering, weak and fragile...

Im having a hard time processing my thoughts. These thoughts that would have never made sense to me until now.The cold floor made me shiver as I sat helplessly on it with tears gushing out of my eyes.

I'm tired of crying, im tired of feeling sorry for myself and im extremely tired of being around him.

"Y/n what's wrong-"

I chuckled. Funny don't you think? The man who nearly
ended my life barely 2 weeks ago is all of a sudden worrying about me.

"You know i never understood the concept of you or whatever this act is." I say

"One day you have me dangling from the neck down like a piece of fresh prey and the other day you're on your knees begging to know what's wrong with me." I say finally looking him in his eyes.

"It all feels like a dream to me and I'll never understand how or why you were able to live with yourself after all you've done to me and act as if it never even happened."

"I may be annoying a bit pretentious, but why?"
"For the past 5 minutes , I've been sitting here thinking, looking for reasons as to why you would carelessly and so effortlessly exert so much pain on me and continue to stay by my side."

"Y/n-"

"Haven't I done enough for you, why must you always and I mean always tear me down?"

" I dont know what to say.." he says quietly

"Was it because of that girl.. the pretty petite one with the short wavy brown hair?"

"Im sorry.." he says looking away

"Look at me."

I began to peel my t-shirt of exposing the dark bruises that decorated my neck and collarbone.

"You did this."

I may be possibly going mad or it may be the intensity of the moment but it seemed like he was tearing up which only made me more angry.

"I-im sorry" he attempts to say.

"I don't want your fucking sorry jungwoo look at me."

He finally does, and I felt ten times better knowing he was dying with guilt.

"You're a terrible person."

"No-"

"Yes you are."

"No i-it was a mistake."

"I-im sorry"

He began weeping like a child. He clung to his legs as he sank to the cold floor cowarding away. And for a second my heart broke, but he deserved every bit of it.

"Never speak to me again-" I say attempting to stand up but my feet give up on me.

He also made an attempt to catch me but I moved.

"What part of dont touch me do you not understand?"

I get up again walking out of the bathroom.

Was i too harsh on him?
I began to think, how I held in all my tears whiles saying all that is unknown to me but I was undoubtedly proud of myself.

The wave of emotion hit me like a truck, and I began whimpering like an injured dog so jungwoo wouldn't hear my despair.

I limped and cried through the hall way, completely forgetting the ordeal I was in.
A familiar face stared me down at the end of the staircase.

"Taeyong was it?? Jungwoo's in the boys toilet"

"How'd you remember"

"How will I ever forget the people who just watched me when I was getting beat up?"

"Sorry-"

"Dont sweat it, I already took all my anger out on jungwoo."

"Y/n!" A familar voice called out

"Renjun?"

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