Xanthophobia (anime hc's)

Levi Ackerman angst

Attack on Titan 

Xreader kinda 

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- if you were to die in Levis arms he would feel guilty as he knows that he wasnt enough to save you. The guilt would eat him alive as he would know that your death was a result of him failing to protect yet another person 

- Levi hates the facts that no matter what mission he goes on, hes likely to be one of the only survivors meaning he will lose many comrades. Due to this he likes to go and look at the stars every night as he believes that everyone who has fallen within his life is a star and it helps him feel closer to them even if they arent physically with him 

- he has lots of scars from fighting for so long and he hates everyone he has so he has no mirrors in his room and he tries to avoid looking at them 

- When they came back from Marley he went to Erwins grave and just talked to him for hours about what had happened and the position he was in. He does this quite a lot as when he is with Erwin he no longer feels alone and he knows that no matter where Erwin is he will continue to guide him and the others 

- Levi sometimes just sits by the entrance to the underground and thinks about his mother and old friends 

- he likes to tell you that he has no regrets but everywhere he looks he finds something he regrets. everywhere he goes he sees something that reminds him of the past 

- Levi has such a soft spot for Sasha as she reminded him of Isabel. when Sasha passed Levi was brought back to the day when he lost Isabel as he then knew that Connie had lost his Isabel (did that make sense idk)

- Levi would draw Erwin so that he wouldnt forget what he looked like but one day he couldnt draw him perfectly anymore and if he was to ever lose you he would do that same 

- Levi writes letters to the people he lost and in the letters he asks for their forgiveness and apologises to them for not being able to save them 

- sometimes at night he cant fall asleep if he isnt holding you as its a reminder to him that you are alive and with him. If he cant feel you near him he cant sleep and even if he was to sleep with you in his arms, he wont sleep for a long time so having you there helps the hours go by whilst he waits for you to wake up or for the sun to rise