First Times

The update with Jennie's POV

Lisa made her want to tear her hair out in frustration. Lisa made her want to scream in impatience. Lisa made her want to rip off all her clothes and lock the goddamn door so she could stop freaking running away every time they were. Almost. Freaking. There.

Yeah. They'd agreed to take it slow. In fact she'd been the first one to bring it up. But now she was going out of her mind.

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Around their third date, things had started getting heated, but instead of enjoying the moment Jennie had suddenly been struck by a terrifying thought.

What if Lisa's just in this to get in my pants? I practically gave myself up on the first date...what if I'm just another notch on her bedpost?

It was so frightening, so horrible, so unbearable, that Jennie had to pull away from Lisa's lips. She watched her eyes flutter open, an instant pout forming.

Her fear must have shown on her face though, because as soon as Lisa looked into her eyes, her pout turned into a worried frown.

"Jen, are you okay? I...did I bite too hard?" She chewed her lip in worry, hand travelling back up from the underside of her thigh to rub comforting circles on her back.

Jennie's heart melted at Lisa's evident concern and she almost pulled Lisa back into her right then to push those nagging doubts out of her head. She wanted to, so much.

But she needed to make sure that Lisa would stay. Stay after it happened. After they happened.

She took a deep breath, trying to ignore the distracting warmth of Lisa's hand on her back. "Lili, can I ask you something?"

Lisa blinked up at her, "Of course. What's up?"

"Where is this going?" She shifted on Lisa's lap, fingers scratching lightly at the bottom of Lisa's neck. She felt Lisa lean into the touch, the hand on her back pressing her until she was sitting flush against Lisa. She thought Lisa was going to try something, but then her left hand came up to join her right and pulled Jennie into a tight hug. Somehow Lisa always knew the perfect thing to do.

She felt herself sink into the hug. She'd only met Lisa a couple months ago, and they'd barely been dating for 2 weeks. But she'd never felt so safe in someone's arms before.

"This is going exactly where you want it to go, Jen. If you want to keep dating, we can keep dating. If you want me to dress up as a dinosaur and give you piggybacks everywhere, we can do that too."

She couldn't help but giggle when Lisa grinned up at her and bared her teeth, making a little roaring sound.

She almost forgot what she was going to ask, but then Lisa's hands on her back wandered a little lower, and suddenly Jennie was scared all over again.

"Wait, I..." What if I ask and she get's pissed off? Or she says no?

"I...I want to wait."

Blinks. "Wait?"

She nodded, hesitant, "I mean like...take it slow...with...with us..."

"Huh? What do you...oh. OH." Lisa's eyes got huge, her face turning pink.

Jennie briefly contemplated the irony of how shy Lisa looked, considering her hands had somehow snuck under her t-shirt, now smoothing circles onto the bare skin of her lower back.

Lisa seemed to realize it at the same moment too, because her eyes got even bigger and she hastily pulled her hands away. Jennie missed the warmth instantly.