Kokichi Angst Oneshots

My Everyday Problems

I leaned against a wall, my frame trembling as I stared at my shaky hands, trying to take in quiet breaths. ..Why was I so clingy..? I just wanted to be with Saihara Chan all the time- But he has friends, and I should give him privacy. ..But it hurt whenever I'd try to do that. ..Why..? ..It's so selfish- I gently lifted my hands up, pushing my cheeks up in an attempt to form a small smile. ..It didn't work. But it'd be alright. I frowned, feeling the red marks under my eyes that had clearly been showing I had been crying. I ran out of makeup too, so I couldn't cover it up yet. My breathing had slowly, but surely, had started to steady a bit more, relaxing slightly as I turned my head, glancing over to where Shumai and Kaede were. My eyes widened as I froze. ..They were kissing..- I blinked, shaking my head slightly. No, no they weren't- I was just imagining it. ..I think. Jeez- Shumai was a faithful boyfriend. ..He wouldn't cheat. Even if he was with some liar like me. ..I think.. I took another deep breath, walking over to the kitchen, and started filling up a glass of water. I could calm myself down if I just took a moment to drink some water- ..I think. I was about to move my shaky hand up, so I could drink the glass- When my hand had failed to properly hold it, causing the now empty glass to clatter, and fall into the sink again, the water still running, as I hadn't turned it off yet. I sighed, cleaning up my mess, and giving up on that. ..Jeez. I couldn't even do one thing right. ..I shouldn't be so emotional though- Not right now. I sighed, using my shaky legs to just sit down on the ground, and curl up against a wall for support, taking a bit of a breather. The dorms were a lot of steps away- But I couldn't just let someone see me like this. ..Besides. It'd be fine. It'd only be harder if I were to let someone know about this anyways- Don't wanna be a burden after all.

I shakily stood up, leaning against the wall with my full body, tears threatening to fall, before I slowly pushed myself off the wall, suddenly feeling really dizzy. ..What's going on? I should be able to walk..- I took a step back, feeling light headed, as soon enough, I had blacked out, the last thing I heard was the back of my head hitting the floor, causing a loud noise to echo through the cafeteria. I could feel the cold liquid of blood slowly pouring out, too weak to even do a thing- And had ended up in a pile of my own cold blood in the kitchen, passed out, with a tear down my face.