Kokichi Angst Oneshots

Pitch Black

Nothing. Absolutely nothing, I thought, as I had stared into the darkness of what you could say was the void. My vision obscured from reality for just a moment.
...

And then? I was taken back. ..And yet I couldn't recall what had just happened. What was I doing again? Where was I? What happened? I blinked, staring absentmindedly at the figure of Saihara Chan. He was here, huh-? "-Were you even listening to me, Kokichi?" But he didn't say anything before that. Did he? I couldn't recall. Not a single second. I sighed, shaking my head. And before I could properly register it, he yelled at me. "This is what I meant when I feel like you don't even care!" ..Huh? I froze, eyes widening. ..What? ..But I don't remember..- "You always forget what we were talking about, and sometimes when I try to talk to you, you just ignore me like I'm not even there!" ..When did I- ..Huh? Forget? ..Did I-.. No. No- I- Why haven't I been able to control it..?

You see, every now and then I'd end up zoning out somehow. Not like in my own world, dreaming- It was more like- I guess- Nothing. I didn't see anything. And I wouldn't remember anything either. ..Saihara Chan had told me about that. That's how I knew. ..But I- I didn't know it was happening more and more frequently.

As I started to get lost in my thoughts, trying to figure out how, and why- ..A noise had rang out, and my cheek had stung. Shumai had slapped me. "You're doing it again! Seriously- I'm done! We're over! This is over!" He yelled out at me. ..What was I doing wrong? That was out of my control. ..I'm sorry. I can't do anything right. Forgive me. If you feel this way then I'm afraid we shouldn't even be near each other. You hate me. I paused for a moment, before a wide grin had spread across my face, arms behind my head as I stared at him. Not a single bit of hurt on me. "..You liar." He spat out at me, before turning his back towards me. "I hate you." And then he left. ..He used to be able to tell when I was faking. Guess not now, huh? Heh. That's fine. It'll only hurt both me and you more the longer we're together. The moment he was out of sight, my eyes had burned slightly, tears starting to stream down my pale cheeks. ..Goodbye, Saihara Chan. We were never truly meant to be, huh? Fate has us as opposites, and opposites can never get together without any problems. That's just how it is. I'm sorry. But I didn't make the rules, they did. And we have no choice but to follow them.