Mistakes I Made

Chapter 10

              It is the morning before I learn how long I will be locked away. As much as I want to stay home with my family and spend my last few hours with them there is something I have to do. I told my parents what I wanted to do and they were very supportive, they just wanted me home before dinner. I make my way out of the door and head towards my first destination.
             As I make my way up the driveway and knock in the door, I can't help but feel like I should not be here. Before I can back out Celeste's mother opens the door and motions me to come in. As I enter I see Celeste's father, and both Taylor, and Abby's parents in the living so I head that way and ask both of them if I can have a moment of their time. I will admit it is a huge coincidence that all of them are here at once but I guess that makes this easier.
             I clear my throat and begin to do what I came here for, "Umm, I came here to say a few things and I know it probably won't change anything I just need to say them before I go away. I am so sorry for everything my actions did to your children." Taylor's mom tries to stop me but I keep talking over her. "No, don't even try and say it's not my fault they all made their own choices. I am the responsible one and I failed them all and I am sorry and I want you all to know that I will spend the rest of my days regretting everything we did that night." The looks on their faces say they are shocked and confused. I wait half wanting a response and half wanting it to stay silent.
              After what felt like eternity something unexpected happens. Abby's mother and father both get up. I think they are about to leave, but instead they get up and hug me. I don't know why but I burst into tears and hugged them tighter. Next thing I knew Celeste and Taylor's parents joined in on the hug. I continue to cry my eyes out and at one point I feel at peace with myself but that quickly ended. Soon after the hug ended I say I have to leave and all of them say goodbye and wish me luck.
             When I get home it is nearly dinner time so I go inside and wash up. Dinner was quiet, it was as if my parents and brother were not even there. I knew they were thinking about tomorrow and I hate that I am putting so much stress on them. Before everyone leaves I say something, " I love you guys so much I may not act like it but I do. No matter what happens tomorrow I will be ok and so will you guys." I then give them all a hug and head up to my room to get ready for bed. I tossed and turned all night until I heard the dreaded iPhone alarm. I got up and got dressed. I guess it's time I find out my fate.