Mistakes I Made

Chapter 11

      All morning my family continued to be positive and act like there is hope. On the other hand, I was focused on spending time with them, because who knows how long I will be gone. I wrote letters to my family, the families of my friends, I wrote a letter to Alex and even Celeste with the hope she will be awake soon. I told my parents to give them the letters after court no matter what happens. They hate that I have no hope left, but at this point hope is pointless.
         When we get to court and we walk in the room I am taken back by what I see. As we walk in I see Alex, Taylor, Celeste and Abby's parents sitting behind where I will be. I know I just had a moment with them not too long ago, but for them to be here and support me means so much to me. I take a deep breath and continue walking to my bench. My lawyer greats me and tells me to stay calm and positive. Too late for that to happen, but I just nod so we can move on. Next thing I knew I heard, "All rise" and I knew it was time.
         The judge begins by saying the basics,    "Luna Davis, a 15 year old female, killed two people and put one in a coma." As he said those words and I looked at other people's faces it made me lose even more hope. Halfway through I start to tune out the judge, because all I hear is, " Jail, killer..." It was my lawyer's turn to talk to the judge and honestly I don't think it will make a difference. She says, " your honor she is a child, yes she was reckless and she should not go without punishment. However, you are wanting to treat her as an adult and that is simply outrageous." She goes on a bit longer but I ignore the rest.
         "Luna Davis," the judge says in an intimidating tone. " Before we begin to announce your sentence, would you like to say something?" My lawyer looks at me and tells me I should not say a word, however I need to talk.
       "Yes, thank you for the opportunity." I take a deep breath and sigh, "Now I am not going to make excuses, I messed up. I was stupid and got distracted. Yes I was sober, yes I knew how to drive, but that did not matter in this situation. For the past few months I have thought about that night and cried my eyes out. I killed my two best friends and put another in a coma. I killed someone's daughter and sister. I look at my parents and brother and realize I took their daughter and sister away by being dumb. I am sorry to everyone directly or indirectly involved in this mess. Mistakes were made 9 to be exact. 9 mistakes that may or may not have been involved in the tragedy of that night. I deserve to be punished, heck I probably don't deserve to be alive but I am. I will never be able to make it up to anyone, but I will try and try until my very last breath. I love you mom, dad, and Zach. I don't know when I will see you again but when I do it will be the best day of my life. Don't worry about me when I'm gone, I know you will but try not to. I did the crime now it's time to do the time. Thank you"
           I look at my family's face and it is the first time I have seen them cry since this whole mess started. " very well let's get into the sentence" the judge says. My chest tightens and my breathing slows. " Luna Davis I sentence you to five years jail and 1 year probation on two counts of vehicular manslaughter, endangerment, and underage driving." There it was, I was right I would be going away for a while. I sink in my chair and I hear a scream come from my mom. I feel the guard pull me up. My family runs over to say goodbye and that is when I break. I am not tough enough for jail, I won't survive this. When I say bye to my parents it feels like the last time I will see them. Next thing I knew I was taken outside and out on a bus straight to the juvenile detention center.