𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐆 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐃𝐔𝐌𝐁 | 𝗮. 𝗮𝘇𝘂𝗺𝗮𝗻𝗲

Chapter 13 ❥

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Your POV

Ever since I went back to school I've felt extremely self conscious. It felt like everyone was watching my every move, like all I eyes were on me. If I said that out loud Sara and Asahi would probably think I was crazy.

But that's just how I felt, as if everyone knew my little secret. I have no idea what I'm going to do when people actually find out. Hopefully I'll be doing independent study at home by then.

I was currently sitting next to Asahi eating lunch, I didn't bring mine but he made sure I ate his his words were 'You gotta make sure son strong and healthy '.

We had yet to actually make a decision, but we were leaning to keeping it. We made an appointment for after school to get an ultrasound, which was probably why were both siting in silence.

My nerves, and I'm assuming his, were all over the place, we sat thinking about the possible outcomes after today.

If we kept it, we could be potentially throwing our futures away, they wouldn't be important, the only person that would matter is the baby. Or we could abort it and go through stages of grief in our relationship, either coming together or drifting apart.

The idea of holding and loving a baby I made with Asahi put a small smile on my face. Though it was extremely inconvenient I was kinda excited.

At the end of the appointments the receptionist said we could make the decision then and there about what we wanted to do. We'd get a pamphlet of the things I'd need like vitamins or medication. Or counseling from a therapist. I would have my mom come back decided I wouldn't tell her anything unless I kept the baby.

"You know we'll have to come first right, Asahi?" Breaking him out of his trance, Asahi looked at me with a questioning look. "What'd you say, babe?"

"That if we you know... we'd have to come first. Not volleyball, whether that be appointments, check ups, bedtime, feedings. Stuff like that." I said in a hushed tone so no one could hear me. Asahi wrapped his arm around my shoulder a kissed my cheek making my face heat.

"I know that. And I'm perfectly fine with it, I promised that I'd always put you first no matter what. Both of you."

"Hey you too, no PDA." The both of us rolled our eyes and Asahi sat back in his seat.

When we got to the planned parenthood I was a mess. My hands were sweating, I felt nauseous, and my head was starting to hurt. As we walked in Asahi grabbed my hand and gave it a reassuring squeeze. Good thing was that there weren't too many protesters there to harass us.

"Hello, do you two have a scheduled appointment?" The receptionist asked. "Yeah, Y/N L/N." They began to type away on the computer a looked up with a smile. "Okay, the wait shouldn't be too long so you guys can sitting over there until your name is called.

As we sat in the waiting room Asahi repeated kissed and rubbed the back of my hand. "We're gonna be okay." Having him with me was definitely calming me down.

"Miss. L/N."

Once we entered the room I sat on the exam table and Asahi took a seat in the chair next to me. She asked a few questions about how I was feeling and the things that have happened to me. After answering all that I could, she instructed me to lift me shirt and lay back.

"This going to be cold." As the cold goo like substance touched my stomach I sucked in a breath. This is really happening.

After searched around for a few minutes we saw it. Now it was real. I'm actually pregnant. "There they are.... you look to be around 10 weeks so far. So you may be experiencing morning sickness, fatigue, and mood swings. Have you?"

My mouth was dry, I was a lost for words, there is an actual baby inside of me.

"Yeah... she's been throwing up every morning, and is usually tired." Asahi said for me.

"Okay... oh there it is. That sound right there is the baby's heartbeat." I looked over to Asahi who was completely entranced in the screen. Tears filled my eyes and fell down my cheeks, "It's okay, baby. We'll fine, I'm here with you."

"I'm assuming you're still looking at other options? I have a few pamphlets that you can look at."

I can't abort this baby. Now that i've heard it's heartbeat, I can't bring myself to do it. That doesn't sit right to me. But this means that both Asahi and I are going to have to give up a lot.

"I-I um, we won't need them."

"Are you sure Y/N? You don't have to, I'm here with you no matter what." I nodded and wiped my eyes. "I'm sure, we can do this."

Before we left lady gave us the vitamins I had to take everyday and scheduled my appointments for the next 7 months.

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When the appointment was over Asahi took me to a Chinese cuisine restaurant near his house.

As we ate all I could think about was how we would tell or parents. I was definitely nervous for myself and Asahi, my dad will probably kill him for getting his 17 year old daughter pregnant.

I'm really just happy that Asahi will be with me the whole time. After we left the clinic he seemed so excited, he's told me before that his one mission in life is to be a great father unlike his who dipped after he was born.

"Do you want the rest of my chicken?" He offered.

"No, thank you though."

"Aren't you supposed to eat a lot? Like a crazy amount."

"I'm not supposed to eat myself to death, just enough. Plus I'd get extra fat."

"You'd still be beautiful if you were fat."

I smiled at Asahi, "I'll hold you to that, boo."

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