𝗮𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗶𝘁𝗲𝗿𝘂 (ON HIATUS)

𝐔𝐧𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬

ART IS NOT MINE! CREDIT TO THE ARTIST!

3rd Person POV:

Killua had a lot to think about that night. He was really fidgety, and the only thing that was on his mind was Gons story.
He thought about all of the things he had done, like maybe put his arm around his shoulder while walking. Or like patting his shoulders, and once he thought about it more it made him feel bad. Like what if it made Gon uncomfortable because he was touching him.

He felt horrible, it made him mad that he didn't know what to do. He's horrible with emotions, and comforting people. All he knows how to do when it comes to those kinds of situations is just listening.
But it made him feel so helpless that he couldn't help comfort the one he really liked. And at this point the boy he really loved.

The night before he was so happy that Gon fell asleep on him. It made him want to do backflips, and his heart just went in circles.
But now when he thinks about it more, what if it made Gon feel uncomfortable when he woke up and found out that he had done that. It made him feel so bad, he didn't know what to do. He couldn't decide on weather to just say he felt horrible about it or not. What if he's just thinking to much into it?
What if Gon really did feel uncomfortable all those times, and didn't like hanging around him anymore.

The thought of that made him cringe.

And when he thought back to the rooftop, he could tell that Gon was lying when he said that he was ok, and it didn't matter. He could see it in his face how it was a big lie. He knew it wasn't ok, and it made him sick just thinking about it.

And it makes him sick that it happened not long ago. It made him so mad he just wanted to punch a wall 100 times, that's how mad it made him.
He made a promise to himself that he wouldn't be as touchy, and wouldn't be as pushy and would try to make him as comfortable as possible.

'No.. I should just act like nothing happened. Make him feel like he never told me, I shouldn't act any differently, well i still won't be as touchy. But I won't act any differently other than that.'

Things were a bit differently in Gons head. He still couldn't believe that he did that. He didn't even want to think about it, it made him so sick.
The telling killua part, and the Takeo part.

He hated talking about it, it just brought up unwanted memories. So he just stared at his ceiling for what seemed like hours.

But then he started to cry. Quiet sobs escaped his lips, trying not to let mito hear him.

'What if he hates me now? What if he finds me disgusting about me trying to kill my self.. god I would never forgive my self if he did hate me. I love him.. I love him so much, I really love this boy and I don't know what I'm supposed to do, or say around him. He just makes my stomach twist in knots and my heart pound.'
Gon thought to himself.

He sits up, looking around in the pitch dark.

'I just can't think about that.. it makes me sick with the thought of thinking about the one I like hating me.'

"It's gonna be ok.."