𝗮𝗶𝘀𝗵𝗶𝘁𝗲𝗿𝘂 (ON HIATUS)

𝐇𝐞𝐥𝐩

ART IS NOT MINE! CREDIT TO THE ARTIST!!

(Pretty angsty chapter! Mentions of abuse, rape, attempted suicide and cutting :/ )

3rd Person POV:

The two males sit awkwardly on the roof of the school. Gon has his knees close to his chest, and killua is sitting cris-cross.
The white haired male looks up at the clouds, enjoying the nice brease that hit his pale skin.

He turns to look at Gon, when he lets out a sigh. "I guess I should tell you now.." The raven haired boy says. "Are you sure Gon? You really don't have too.." killua reassures him.

"No, I need to get it off of my chest.." he looks up at the clouds that killua was previously studying.

Killua looks at gon, waiting for him to start. "Well.. I don't really know what changed, or what happened. Because when me and Takeo first started dating, he was so sweet, and would get me flowers, and take me out on nice dates.. and then I guess I did something? Or Takeo started drinking or something.. but during our second year of dating, when we were 16, something changed. Like a light switch getting turned on."

Flashback

Gons POV:

I walk in to me and Takeos shared apartment, well it was just right next to aunt mitos, she wanted to live close since we were both relatively young.

"Babe! I'm home." I take of my shoes, setting them neatly next to his. I just got off of my part time job, and he doesn't have one so he gets home before me.

I look around, usually he meets me once I announce that I'm home. "Uh, babe? Are you here?" I start to look around, looking for my brown haired boyfriend.

First I look in the bedroom, suspecting that he might be taking a nap. Once I see he's not in there, I look in the kitchen.

"Bab-" I get cut off when I get a harsh slap to my face, sending me to the floor.

My eyes widen, as drops of tears fall from the sudden hit. "WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU HOME LATE?!" I flinch when I hear Takeo yell. "T-takeo..? Are you o-"

"ANSWER THE DAMN QUESTION!" I quickly cover my head, and clutch my eyes shut when he raises his arm, acting like he was going to hit me. I start to sob.

"T-there was traffic! I-I'm sorry!" I stumble upon my words.
"That's no damn excuse, bitch." He mumbles the last part but I can still hear it and my eyes widen.

I start to sob again at those words. "SHUT UP OH MY GOD YOURE SO ANNOYING!" He steps on my foot, causing me to Yelp.

"My god, just shut up. You're sleeping on the couch." He scoffs, walking past me to our bedroom.

Once I hear the lock on our bedroom door, I slowly sit up.

'What the heck just happened..?' I thought to myself.
I reach up to feel my stinging cheek, and flinch once I put pressure on it.

"Damn it.." I whisper, scared of what would happen if I talked. It was so quiet, I could barely hear it.

'Maybe he's just having a bad day.. yeah, just bad day.'

Time skip

3rd person POV:

It's become a pattern that everyday Gon would get home from work he would get a beating for something he didn't do, or had no value to anything.

It's gotten to the point where Takeo forced Gon to quit his job, AND drop out of school just so he couldn't see or talk to anyone. He even made him ghost his aunt.

Gon couldn't leave the house at all, Takeo didn't let him have his phone either, and sometimes wouldn't let him eat.
But even through all of that, he would still have hope that it would get better, maybe something would change.

But all of that hope was quickly wiped away when his once nice boyfriends friends got involved.
He was.. violated.. he was touched in places he didn't want to be touched. It didn't matter how much he kicked, and trashed, they didn't stop.

He was broken, that finally broke him. At this point he was intentionally not eating, he has gotten so used to the abuse that he didn't feel it anymore.

And, at times when Takeo wasn't home, Gon would find a knife, or scissors or anything sharp he could find, and would cut himself.

And everyday he would tell himself everything that Takeo told him.

That he was worthless

That he was nothing

That he didn't deserve anything

And he started to believe it. And would blame himself for even the tiniest mistakes. He would blame himself for his beatings. He blamed himself for everything.
He had forgotten how it felt to feel normal, or loved.

Until one day, he looked in the medicine cabinet.. looking at all the different pills.
And suddenly an idea popped into his head.

'Maybe I should overdose..' he thought to himself.
'No one would miss me. I don't even matter to anyone.'

He made up his mind, he quickly opened each pill case, shoving some of each into his mouth. Positioning his mouth under the faucet so he could better swallow all of them.

'And now we wait..'

He was rushed to the hospital later that day.

End of flashback

3rd Person POV:

"And Takeo, and some of his friends were send to prison after a long trial at court.." Gon finished his story, burying his face in his knees. He was terrified of what killua had to say, he didn't even wanna know what he had to say.

After a few seconds of silence he turns his head slowly to look at the white haired male. He didn't see much, just a blank face.

"Killua..?" He asks quietly. "I'm sorry.." he notices killua clutch his fists. "What?"
"I'm so sorry that happened.. I really wanna murder those assholes. I'm just.. I just don't know what to say." He covers his face with his hands.

"Don't feel sorry.. it's all in the past.. it doesn't really matter anymore." He lies about the last part. "But it does! I know you're lying about that, I know it still bothers you. Having to go through that, and saying something like that? You can't just forget what happened! It will be with you forever, no one should ever have to go through that. Especially some one like you, you're sweet, and kind and deserve the world. And don't let anyone tell you otherwise. And if they do, tell me I'll beat the shit outta them." He lightly smiles.

"You mean a lot to me, you're my first real friend." The word friend made killua cringe as he said it.

Gon smiles at that. "Thank you.. thank you for being my friend killua."