Haikyuu one shots! (fluff/smut/lemons)

☁️Sugawara💔

TW: sh, suicide, etc. 

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Back in high school I was quiet and reserved. I had made a friend Kiyoko she was similar to me. Once she became manger of the volleyball team we started to hangout less but kept in contact. She introduced me to some of her friends on the volleyball team and began to hangout more. That was back in high school, I'm now in collage with Sugawara, Asahi, and Daichi.

~Current time~ 

I sit in the bathroom in my dorm staring at my pill bottles my brain telling me to do something I know I shouldn't. I look at the scars on my arms from an half hour ago from impulse. The blood stained my arms slightly bleeding still though seeing the blood satisfied the urge to take the pills and shove them all down my throat. I heard a knock on my dorm door so I quickly hid any evidence and put a hoodie on. I gently open the door to see Sugawara. "Suga? what are you doing here I thought you had class at this time" I question the gray haired boy. "Classed ended early so I thought I'd check in on you." He said kindly "I mean I know how you are, you've kinda pushed yourself away so I needed to know if you were ok." He continued from his previous statement. "Aww that's very nice of you but umm I was kinda busy doing some studying, so could you come back later?" I lied trying to push him away like he had predicted. "Oh well I could help you if you want me to, I just don't want you to stress yourself out like you did back in high school." He said. I think back to high school, it was just like I am now. I had pushed away all my friends and started up bad habits that had just came back. It had been years since I took a blade to my skin and the scars had disappeared but new ones were made and they were still bleeding under my sleeve. "You really don't need to I got it I better get back to studying before classes start." I say lying again to keep him away. "Ok well talk to you later then bye." He said walking away as I closed the door. "That was close...." I whisper to myself. I lift up my sleeves the blood now smeared on my arm. I walk to the bathroom wiping the blood off my arm seeing that the bleeding stop unfortunately. I walk to my desk and pull out some paper. Tonight was the night, I knew this would hurt but it needed to be done. Tears started as I was writing. Folded pieces of papers with names on them were laid on my desk. It was starting to get late and it was almost curfew.  I swiftly head to the roof top there was no one there, I was smart enough to make a makeshift lock so no one could get onto the roof to stop me. I lock the door and look over to the railing making my way over. It was 7 floors so I hoped it would do something.  I stand on the edge of the railing only hold on just so I wouldn't fall. I then start hearing pounding on the door I had locked. Crying screams from the other side could be heard, it was the boys. I let go of the railing and the door is opened by Asahi and Daichi. I heard a blood curdling scream as I started to fall but I feel something grab me. My back hit the wall as someone grabbed me. My head hit the wall and I blacked out. I had just hoped that I slipped from their grasp and that I would be free from this hell called earth. I wake up in a hospital bed all three boy and Kiyoko on either side of me. My eyes slowly open and all I feel is pain. My hands immediately go to my head. "hey! Hey! Their ok!" Sugawara says with tears in his eyes he looks to see me in a lot of pain. Daichi runs off to get a doctor as the other three try and comfort me through the pain. "Why, why, why.." I said sobbing through the pain. I was still in my hoodie from earlier. I wanted to scream at them so much, or maybe I wanted to scream at the world. Either way I couldn't, I could barely speak in the first place from how much pain I was in. Daichi came back with a doctor and forced them to back away. Tears streaming from my eyes with my already slightly blurry vision. They gently take my arm seeing no IV on me they call for another doctor. They roll up my sleeve seeing the cut that were recent. Sugawara caught a glance of them while Asahi had stared at them tears not stopping. Another doctor came in with an IV, a light scream could be heard from me as more pain was added onto my body. My breathing started to get heavy as I couldn't take the pain anymore, I didn't want to be in pain I wanted to not even be here. The pain started so numb after a minute and the doctors left. Sugawara gently traces the new scares on my arm. "How long?" He sadly spoke, no response. "Please Y/n tell me." Still no response. I didn't know what time it was so I could give him a proper response. I pointed to my wrist as if i was wearing a watch. He notices and responses "10:45".  I started to calculate how many hours it has been. "9 or 10 hours..." I say. I could see he was doing the math mentally. More tear started and he looked at everyone. "That's when I came over..." His eyes went wide as he backed up and sat in a chair. Everyone went over to comfort him. I stuck my arm out as if to comfort him from the bed I was in. "I could have prevented this... They could have been safe if I stayed... I'm such an idiot." He quietly said. I got up as best as I could getting off the bed and walking over to him. "hey, no, get back in bed ok." He said to me but I just kept striding on my shaky legs gently pushing through Daichi and Asahi who were on the left side of him. I sit next to him gently laying my head on his shoulder. The other three taking in the scene in front of them. Suga gently laughed and put an arm around me. I took the piece of paper in my pants pocket that was meant to be found when I was gone. I hand it to him. It has his name on it with a few drawn purple hearts. "It's not your fault it's mine don't blame yourself." I say quietly and gently as I slowly walk back to the bed and curl in to a ball. Kiyoko looked at the unopened letter then back at me. She pat my head knowing what the letter is. "Good job Y/n, at least now he knows." She smiles at me. I notice Suga make his way over to me as his once tight grip let go of the letter. He lent down and held my face giving me a gentle and passionate kiss. I was shocked but I melted into the kiss seconds later. "I've always loved you Y/n." He smiles with tears still on his face. I smile but it slowly fades as my breathing becomes fast and the pain starts to come back slow and painfully. A doctor walk by and sees me in pain and goes to get another. Sugawara holds my hand and I close my eyes tightly. Kiyoko looks at me putting a hand on my head trying to clam me. Daichi and Asahi move to the other side of me Asahi rubbing circles into the back of my hand holding it to keep me from pulling at my hair. The doctor rushed in having everyone back away. "No, no, come back please... Don't go" I say tear in my eyes as they force me to let go of Sugawara's hand. "Give it back." I cried quietly. Tears stream down my face once the doctor moves I grab Suga's hand hold it tightly like if I let go he would leave. "Hey, hey, hey, hey I'm not going anywhere ok. I'll be by your side all night if you want me to ok?" He said in a calming voice. It was starting to get late the doctors had told them they had to leave. I looked at sugawara "don't go please.. I don't want you to." I held onto his hand tighter. I looked at the doctor tears that had once dried started to come back. "I'm sorry sweet heart only relations are aloud in here. Hearing that I immediately say "He's my boyfriend!" I slightly yell. The doctor shocked lets him stay as sugawara is a blushing mess. He look at me getting on knee level as the others leave. "You want us to be official?" He looks to me to confirm. "mhmm, mhm" I say shaking my head yes. "Ok then Sugar." He says which makes me smile immediately. I move over to make room for him and pat the space next to me. He lays next to me holding me close. I fall asleep with my head on his chest. 

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(1620) words I really hoped you like it! I can make a pt. 2 of this if you guys want? (there probably will be a pt. 2) Anyways have a good morning/day/night/evening!