𝐎𝐮𝐭𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐫 [[Kimetsu Academy au]] (fem reader)

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[[TW: suicide mention]]

{flashback}

You tilt your head back, looking up to the partly cloudy sky

The grass is so tall and green here, that you've spent the last hour or so plopping down in it and leaving indents shaped like you. Almost like you would if there was snow

It was middle school, before you knew Sabito. You had just met Makomo a few months before that day.

"Makomo, look" you pointed up at the sky

The blue haired girl squinted up as well

"That cloud looks kind of like a bunny" she says

"It does!" You giggle "a fat one"

Makomo looks at you again, ripping the grass beside her in an absent-minded manner

"You kind of look like a bunny to me (Y/n). Is that weird?" She sighed

You shook your head "I like them. They run fast, and I wanna be like that too."

"No, I mean, I said that because you're pretty." She mumbled "I have the prettiest best friend in the whole school."

"What? That didn't make any sense" you yawn, sitting up to look over at her

"Sorry..." she laughs nervously

"It's okay Makomo, I'm not mad. I like when you share random thoughts with me, even ones like this" you laugh along with her

"...you know what? The next time you have a random thought, you should just say it. I won't judge you next time"

Makomo smiles slightly "really?"

"Yeah, really."

~

"WAIT UP" Sabito calls again, with Tanjiro on his heels

"NO." You yelled back "you selfish pricks...especially YOU Sabito. I expected so much better"

Despite your words, and the fact that they had all just ditched school in plain sight, they still followed

I get it now, how could I have been so stupid?? I always knew...

You swerve into the street past some moving cars, hoping to lose the other two behind you

But to your dismay, you heard them following from a short distance behind

"STOP, ITS DANGEROUS" Tanjiro yelled

"DONT FOLLOW ME THEN" you screamed at the top of your lungs

You turn into an empty street which leads down to the old dock. There aren't many ships here, and if there are, they have not been used in a while

It's gone quiet...have I lost them?

You slow to a stop, your heel skidding on the pavement

No ones here

I guess I should've expected that she wouldn't be here but...there has to be something. I cant waste any more time

Your first instinct is to pull out your phone and call her number. You're still hurt, but this is no time to grieve.

You walk slowly toward the edge of the pier, looking among the boats and under the wooden boards

Please don't be dead. Please don't drown

"DONT go over there" Sabito warned

You turn to see him grabbing his board by the kicktail. Tanjiro is behind him looking guilty as well

"Did...she kill herself?" You lower your voice to a whisper, your breaths becoming shaky with horror

"How am I supposed to know that?!" Sabito panicked

"She might be alive" Tanjiro interjected "Don't you remember what Zenitsu said?"

"You were the only person she didn't want to hurt in this process. She wouldn't call you to come here if she planned to die, it just doesn't fit right"

"She probably did it when she realized you weren't coming" Sabito said

"No...that doesn't seem right either" Tanjiro mumbled

You sit down on the edge of the pier with a defeated sigh, letting your legs dangle off the sides above the water

"I don't know if I can talk about this anymore," you whisper, feeling your stomach churn

You didn't say anything when Tanjiro came to sit beside you

Sabito stays behind. You could barely see his face but he looked lost

It almost reminds you of when he was a child, looking for you

Is this what he meant when he said he wants me to choose him?

You look down at the keychain in your hands

So much for stupid fucking luck. I should toss this thing right now, right in front of him.

"GUYS, I found something!"

Both of you stood quickly and ran to where Sabito was on the rocks below the pier

"This is her backpack. I recognized it as soon as I saw" he explained, rummaging through the bag

"HOLD ON SABITO—this is evidence! If we touch it before going to the cops, we'll go to jail" Tanjiro reached for Sabito's arm

Sabito smacked his hand away "I know what I'm doing, earring boy. Maybe you should mind your own business for once"

You swallow hard

"But—" Tanjiro starts, and you cut him off

"No. Let him do it."

The two of you crouch behind Sabito, watching him look through her things directly over his shoulder

None of her textbooks, notebooks, or school supplies were in this book, which comes as a shock to everyone. Makomo is not the kind to forget that stuff

Instead, it's filled with clothes, and there's even a shampoo bottle in there

But no phone

"Oh my god..." you whisper "she was going to run away... literally."

"Her phones not here. Did she take it with her?" Tanjiro spoke, talking to himself

"I don't know but I feel...like maybe we're on to something." Sabito looked up from the bag "let's do this. For Makomo."

You nod for her!