Difference

Chapter 5

I picked up a pillow and threw it to the powder blue wall. "Tch. Stupid Soryu. 'How in love I am'! As if!"

I climbed up to my bed, snuggled on the fresh sheets, and closed my eyes. I emptied my mind-forcing myself to sleep.

I flew my eyes open, and sat up, saying "****! Why can't I sleep?"

I groaned and left the my room for a glass of milk.

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I drank a glass of milk, and placed it on the table beside my bed. I closed my eyes again and prayed that I could sleep well.

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I opened my eyes. "It's the middle of the night, and I still can't sleep!" I grumbled. I rose up from the bed, and ran the bathtub.

I grabbed another glass of milk and drank it with one gulp, while waiting for the tub to be filled with water and bubbles. I closed my eyes, stripped off my clothes, and gently came into the water.

I felt something behind my back. "Hi Yukan," a voice whispered.

I flew my eyes open, extremely startled.

"E-Eisuke! Wha-what are you doing here?!" I asked, and was about to stand up, when he pulled me closer to him.

"L-let me go! Get out of here!!!" I exclaimed. He buried his face on my neck, and... licked it. It sent shivers down my spine.

"E-Eisuke! Mmm...! S-stop!"

"I can't. I want you, Yukan." He whispered gently and continued to kiss my neck.

"I know you want me too."

"AAAAH!!!" I yelled. I looked at my surroundings, and knew that I'm still on my bedroom.

"W-what dream was that? Wa-wait, that's not a dream, that's a nightmare!"

I stood up and went to the dining room to eat breakfast. When I got there, I found EISUKE!

"Oh, good morning, my dear daughter."

"Good morning, dad. Are there any meetings today?"

"There are none. Please sit down and eat with us."

I glanced at Eisuke who was playing with his green peas on his plate.

I sat beside Eisuke and started to eat in silence. "Hey," I elbowed him.

"What?" He asked, annoyed.

"Why won't you eat your peas? Are they spoiled?"

"Mmmrrr..." Eisuke groaned, averting my gaze.

"Hmm..."

"What? If you're thinking what I think you do, you better shut up, because that is not tr-"

"Really? Then, eat it all. Even mine," I teased, offering my plate.

"Tch! Fine! You got me!"

"Heehee... you should've said that earlier so you wouldn't have to be embarrassed."

"Why would I be embarrassed? It's not like you're important to me or something."

I frowned at his harsh words. He shouldn't be that rude.

"What are you frowning there for? Do you think you're important to me?"

"N-no, but..."

"Then, good."

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We were about to leave, including my dad, when a sudden heavy rain came upon us. It is still morning, but it's almost pitch black outside.

"Hmm... quite a rain we have." dad mumbled.

"Sure..." I said, leaving them at the door.

"Where are you going?" Dad asked. "You wouldn't do what I think you'll do, right?"

"Daaad..., you know I love my life. I would never do that!" I exclaimed.

"Alright, sweetie. Go ahead."

"Thanks..." I mumbled. I stepped on the staircase, when I heard dad say "She gets really sad when it rains."

I closed my eyes and clenched my fists for a moment. "Oh mom..." I breathed into the cold, slightly-thick air that made the surroundings pensive and depressing.

I went to my room and searched for a particular book-the one that my mom gave me when I was eighteen. Well, more of like, my dad gave it to me, but it's from my mom. She already died before I even turned 10. "Ah, here it is." I pulled it out from the drawer, then pulled a letter inside it. I read it.

To my dearest daughter, Yukan,

Please read and understand this book carefully. Take care of this as if it was me. I know I am pretty much selfish, not letting you know I have cancer. I am really sorry about that. Anyways, happy birthday! I wish you all the best! And whenever you miss me, just read this book and you'll know my love for you, dear daughter. I hope that you finally meet 'the one'. The one that erases my absence from your mind and replaces it with his presence. I love you, Yukan.

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY!!!

Love,
mommy

I was in the verge of tears, when Rein came to my room. "Hey," he said, coming closer.

"I know you miss your mom, but she's right here...,"

"Stop joking Rein. And if you're not joking, you'll scare the **** out of me."

"I'm not."

"Okay, stop it Rein."

"Why? She's really here."

"Seriously, stop it! It will be hard for me to sleep."

"No, I meant, she's in your heart." he touched my heart, er, chest.

"Sure, Rein..."

"I am not kidding." Then, dad called Rein.

"Bye Yukan..." he whispered with sad eyes.

He silently left my room and the gentle closing of the door made the room more lonely.

After a few hours of reading, Eisuke came into my room, sat beside me, and asked "Are you alright now?" I was snuggled by the soft sheets that made me comfortable, but now, I feel nervous.

I closed my book shut, my eyes wide.

Is this true, or am I hearing things?

"Hey, look at that. I think it likes you."

"What???"

"That..." he pointed to my shoulder.

"A...?" A moment of realization came to me, and...

"Aaaaahh!!! Spider!!!! OMG! OMG! OMG! I hate spiders! Get that out of here! Please!!"

Eisuke came closer to me, practically lying on the bed with me. He flicked the spider away and an mischievous smirk came across his face for a moment. Then, a sharp crack of thunder boomed throughout the room.

"Agh!" I clung onto Eisuke's arm.

****! Both phobias in one place! I can't take this anymore!

"Hey don't be afraid. It's just thunder, come here." he said, then pulled me closer to him, burying my face on his chest.

I AM DEFINITELY HEARING THINGS!!!

A/N: hey guys... um... sorry again for the short chapter. I know it's bad, and I'm really sorry about that. Half of this was deleted so it took so long. I'm sorry about this. If you enjoyed this please vote/comment and follow. But if you didn't, you can leave it as a view. I'm sorry :'( I'm not improving. Please tell me what's wrong so I could fix this immediately. I would appreciate it very much if the comment was about what are my mistakes. Tnx for reading.