Tell a Story

Kabanata 3

"SELF"

At the age of 16 I started planning my future
I started considering things out of pressure
When I think I wanted it; yet I doubted it
When I think this fits me but felt like it didn't
I was confused and unsure
Of what really I wanted in my future

I choose a track that I'm not sure
Because it sounded intellectually genius
When I got there, "Why am I here? "
Doubting myself is already a habit
But hey, I graduated

And things really gets real
Another chapter of my life got reveal
And guess what, I got the course I never wanted
Trying is what everyone has been doing
Giving up is not allowed, so keep going

Jealous? No, more like envious
I envy people who can pursue things minus the pressure
Every steps I make, expectations has made
One mistake and you'll be judge I did my best to ignore and dodged

It's funny how they try to draw my future
They say things that will set you high
It's like they're holding you in your leisure
Just one mistake and they'll pull you down
I maybe thick face for not giving a care

To those people who think they're more
Ignoring is what I do
To those who think wrong of my choice
Giving me advices is like dictating my life
I listened but I don't
Their advices doesn't seem an advice

But a words covered with insult and pity
I'm thankful, yes, so much
Their concerns, I feel so touch
Yet, I feel suffocated "Why is that? "I wanna do things at my pace

But status push me faster to hit the ace
Prove them wrong is my goal
Just wait and see when I kick the ball
Right time would come
And I'll wait till they say, "I saw you wrong"

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