Never yours

Chapter 8

KHALIL's POV

I was woken up by the sound of Azhan, i am glad I could finally fall asleep 2hours before subhi. Last night was a hell long night for me, i sighed and waited on my bed to listen carefully as the sound of adzhan echoed in my ears, that alone is enough to remind me that Allah is by my side and is enough for me, i put my trust in him and I know he is going to help me out because through every hardship he had stayed by my side, i got up and offered my salat, did my morning supplications, i raised my hands up and pour my heart to Allah,"fa inni qareeb" reminded me of my duty to call out and make du'a, for, du'a is worship, du'a is conversation with Allah, I didn't realize i was in tears until i felt a salty liquid in my lips, I ended my prayer and wiped my reeking neck.

Things have changed between myself and malika, and to be honest it's really bothering me and obviously there is nothing i can do about it, i miss the way she is always around me, and her cooking, i truly missed her and now mubina, it seems i am about to lose her too, ya Allah make this easy for me, i love this girl with everything in me.

Mubina's pov

Mum please "I shouted again banging the door as hard as i did seconds ago, she still isn't opening" i said to tima with a teary eyes

it's ok we will keep knocking until she does " she said caressing my back.

Aunt please "Tima joined me in begging and after some minutes of begging and crying she finally opened the door, Dad left the house early this morning and she haven't come out of the room since last night, it's almost time for lunch and I just couldn't take her silence anymore.

Mum "I said when she swung her door open, i looked at tima and she squeezed my palms, giving me that " it's gonna be fine" face, i nod at her and walked inside, she left and went back to my room

Mum please talk to me "I said, she didn't utter a word completely ignoring my presence, i took another step closer to her and just as Mairo had told me to do earlier i went on my knees to beg for her forgiveness, Tima called mairo and told her everything that's going on, she is really disturbed for me and of course Mairo is like a sister to her, your parents can't be fighting because of you mubina" mairo voice echoed in my ears and that moment i knew i have to do anything to reconcile my parents"anything apart from leaving Khalil "a voice said in my head as i held my mother's hands, Mum please i beg of you"i said crying hard

Stop making me look like your enemy mubina because wallahi no one will ever love you more than i do" she finally spoke and i am glad to hear her voice

I Never said  you are one"i replied calmly

But you are making me look like one "she blurted

I am sorry "i replied

For what ? for embarrassing me and making me look like a bad person? or for causing the biggest fight between me and your dad ? or for the future embarrassment that is yet to come?? "She said with a teary eyes, which type of a daughter are you " she added and i feel my heart breaking at every single word, Did i really raise you to be this selfish? where did I go wrong with you ? she said again taking her hands from mine

Mum i am sorry, but please why won't you just understand me for the love of Allah I am in love with someone else, if you had ask anything else from me i will do it for you in a heart beat, Wallahi  if i don't have anyone else,i don't mind marrying Mubarak just to see a smile on your face, but mum i have been together with Khalil for almost 4years now, tell me how can i just leave him? how mum? wallahi am gonna die without him "I said crying

You are so selfish mubina  "she said outraged

Why is she acting like she has never been in love? doesn't she have the slightest idea what i am going through? if my dad didn't remind me yesterday that she really is my birth mum then i would have definitely doubt that right now .