A New Kind of Love - Enya Umanzor Fanfiction

Redefining Relationships

When I opened my eyes, it took them a while to adjust. The first thing I felt was a banging in my head, and my entire body was sore.

"She's waking up!" A familiar voice said from my right side. I turned towards the voice and saw Drew sitting on the floor near the window. That's when I realized I was in the hospital. "Holy shit what happened to me?" I looked around and saw Finn slumped against the opposite wall with his eyes closed, and Orion and Enya squeezed on the one seater couch in the corner of my room. I was still ashamed about everything, so I quickly laid back down and looked up at the ceiling to avoid looking at them.

"You were hit by a car, and you've been knocked out since Monday. Your sister called Orion when she got your phone from the doctor and we got on the first flight out here. We've been here since Sunday too", Drew filled me in. "Oh wow. What's today?" I asked him to which he quickly responded, "Wednesday ". I was out for three days. I sighed heavily and sat back up. "I'll go get the nurse", Enya said as she left the room.

"Orion I-" I couldn't even finish my sentence before Orion jumped in. "Not here. You rest and we can talk later". She gave me a weak smile before speaking again, "When I got home the next morning I expected you to be locked up in your room again. I was so scared when I couldn't find you. I went back to Drew's place right away saying that you had left and I had no idea where to. We spent all day trying to look around L.A. for you, and then your sister called me..."

"I'm so sorry. You guys didn't have to come. I understand exactly what Drew said. I'm new and I had no right to barge in and mess with your friend group. I'm just going to stay away. I'll find another apartment so I can still work at ZARZAR, but you won't have to worry about me. I guess you guys came here out of pity, but you don't have to feel guilty about anything."

"Pity? Are you kidding you're our friend. Just because we asked for some space, doesn't mean we didn't plan on figuring it out. I guess it came off badly when I kicked you out like that, but we were all overwhelmed and confused. Nothing like this has ever happened in our friend group. None of us wants to lose each other," Drew said to me.

The nurse came in after that and checked my vitals. She told me that my left leg was broken and one of my ribs was bruised. I would have to stay in the hospital for a few more days before they could send me home with a cast for my leg. They also said that a psychiatrist would be in to talk with me today because of what my mom told the hospital about my history with depressive episodes.

When the nurse left the room, an awkwardness filled the air as we all sat in one room. Finally Orion spoke, "Drew we should go see if Christian, Elisa and Josh need help with carrying all that takeout". Drew looked up at her with a confused look before catching on and quickly getting up. He tapped Finn and waited for his eyes to open before motioning to him to get up. "Eden! I hope you're feeling better than you look". I laughed at Finn's blunt humor causing my stomach to hurt a bit. They left after that leaving Enya and I alone.

"I read your poem", she said first, looking to floor. "What did you think?" I questioned back. "Um, I don't know. When I first read it, I felt that I wasn't alone with feeling the way I feel about you. I didn't know what I wanted to come from it though. I just wanted you to know that even though I was confused, I was willingly to work all of that out with you instead of running from it. But it's just-" "Orion", I cut in, causing us to say her name at the same time.

"Orion who openly let me into her world the first night I met her, who let a girl she hardly know move in with her, who became an amazing friend to me over these few months. Yes I know. I don't want to ever hurt Orion". When I finished talking I looked up from my hands to see Enya looking at me with red rims around her eyes as if she was about to cry. "So what now?" she asked me with a naïveté in her voice that made me wish I had all the answers for her. "I don't know".

The rest of the day dragged on for what felt like years. The psychiatrist talked with me for about an hour before finally saying "Your depression comes in episodic waves often leading to black outs or feelings of intense dissociation. Such episodes are often triggered by an emotional situation, specifically ones with more negative emotions. As of right now, it's difficult to pin down exactly what your diagnosis would be. I believe I could truly be able to understand you and provide you with the correct help if we were to meet on a weekly basis. Would you be open to that?" I nodded my head, and she set it up.

Later that night after everyone had left, I was sitting in my room thinking hard about what to do. If I stay by Enya's side and allow her to understand her feelings for me and vise versa, we could end up in a very happy relationship, but then it would break Orion's heart to watch us together. On the other hand, I could date Orion. It would definitely be easy since we live together, and sometimes do coupley things anyways. If I did that, part of me would be lying because I just see her as a dear friend. I also realized that I couldn't come to this conclusion on my own. We all needed to have a say.

I grabbed my phone off the side table and called Orion. The phone only rang once before she answered, "Hey is everything okay?". There was
concern in her tone.

"Yeah Im fine. You picked up really quickly"

"I just figured you'd only call if it were an emergency"

"I could call you for other reasons. It's not an emergency right now"

"So why did you call?"

I sighed before answering her question, "What are we going to do about all this? I really don't know what the right choice is".

She was silent for a bit and I could almost hear the gears turning in her head. This was my favorite part of talking to Orion: she's one of the only people who analyzes the world at the depth that I do. Finally she spoke, "My feelings for you, well they're like a crush. You're my good friend, we live together, so it was only natural for me to start liking you..."

"Your thought doesn't sound complete. I sense a but coming"

"But something weird happened between you and Enya. From the first day you two met each other it was something there. I really don't want to get in the way of something that was fated if that makes sense. I can get over the crush."

"It's easier said than done. Trust me"

After the call ended, I stared out the window at the moon, framed elegantly with soft clouds. There was still a choice that needed to be made.