Vivid

Chapter 4

I looked back at Aaron and the world went mute as questions spun my head. The world was spinning as more and more fear went through my body. I was shaking as I tried to step away. I curled up on the floor next to a shelf. The world was silent and dizzy.

"I am here okay? I am right here" I hear Aaron calmly and fairly trying to help me.

I sat for what felt like forever listening to Aaron's voice and trying to bring myself back to the present time and place. Aaron has always been good at helping me when my anxiety went crazy.

"It was prbably written by some dumb kid who found the book and wanted to scare people" Aaron said trying to make sense out of all this.

He had a point but then if people knew it existed why doesn't everyone know about it. I think our situation is so unique that there is no other possible explanation other than it being real and true. I think Mr. Moon knows something about this since he was the one who told me about the book and where to find it.

I checked my phone and it was already seven o'clock so I put the book in my bag and had to get ready to go home.

"You can come for dinner if you want my mom and Sofia to love you," I told Aaron, hoping he would agree.

I didn't want to walk home alone after reading that the entire government might try to kill me. Thankfully a part of him knew that and he agreed without much hesitation. Aaron was talking the whole walk home trying to help me forget about everything that has happened in the past four hours. It helped a bit but not much which he seemed to notice.

It was about 10 minutes from my house still, but I started to forget about everything as we walked through the woods. Aaron knows this is my favorite place. I could never find a better place. As we were walking my phone rang and it was my mom.

"Hey Momma!" I said listening carefully so I could hear Sofia in the background.

"Hey Phoenix, dinner is almost ready, are you on your way?" She asked.

"Yeah and I have Aaron with me hoping you wouldn't mind if he joined us" I told her in a please don't say no voice.

Thankfully she said he was always welcome and after dinner Aaron left and I got the book out of my bag. I put it out on my desk and stared at it. I honestly didn't know whether or not it would be smart to read it. As if he could read my mind Aaron texted me saying I shouldn't read it and I should get some sleep.

I knew he was right but I wasn't going to listen to him. I picked the book backup and started reading it once again. It must have been written by someone who had the multicolored dot of someone close to them because the details were vivid.

According to this book, I am the only person able to do the one thing most people would never dream of doing. This person wants me to break the government's dot system. And apparently I am the only one who can.

It is going to be dangerous and if the government figures out they'll kill me. Is that what happened to the first girl the dot like mine? I hope not. Let's think about this for a minute. If I do something there is a very likely I will get killed. But if I don't I'll have to live knowing I could have saved myself from the stress and self hate that comes with my dot. I will also have to live knowing someone else in the future might have to do this.

I think the list of reasons for me to do this is longer than the list for reasons I shouldn't. I'll talk with Aaron tomorrow. If I were to do this I would need some people to trust, but who? Definitely Aaron but I wouldn't want to put him in any danger. What about Mr. Moon? Did he know about this? Does he want me to do it? Does he plan to help me? Why would he tell me to find this if he didn't want me to and didn't plan to help me?

He seems to know much more than he is willing to tell me. Eventually he must plan on telling me. Should I wait for him to bring it up or just go ask him tomorrow?

More and more questions flooded my mind and a knock on my door made them all stop. I called for the person to come in and it was Sofia.

"What's up Sof, why aren't you asleep?" I looked at her as she rubbed her eyes and yawned.

"I can't sleep. Will you come put me to bed? Mom has tried but she isn't good at it" She walked over to me with her big tired eyes that I obviously couldn't say no to.

I took her and hand walked her to her room. No matter what I was thinking about how I have forgotten it all. I laid her down, tucked her in, sang her a short lullaby, read her a short book and she quickly drifted off. I remember when it was that easy to sleep. I miss those days.

With my mind still calm I walked back to my room and decided to get some sleep myself. I had honestly forgotten about everything and didn't think about everything I would have to deal with tomorrow.