My Romeo {English version}

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• Narrated by Junhee •

Eunji steps out of the vehicle gracefully, she gives me a cheerful look, accompanied by a wide smile.  It is good to see that I was able to make her happy, to hear her laugh and realize how much she enjoys my company is priceless, knowing that she loves me gives me strength in the chaos in which I live daily in the palace.  At the same time that I am happy with our moments, I feel a rotten being, for lying.  And this time is no different, I notice her happiness from head to toe, she shows in every action and I force myself to keep smiling without giving in to crying.  I don't want to lie or hide everything that is happening and I wonder, until when?

— Spending time with you is always perfect, I always feel happy!

— I feel the same way, little one — her smile widens, making the guilt grow in me.

Eunji closes the car door and turns around, walking calmly and slowly towards the palace gates.  A light breeze makes the long dark strands of your hair flutter.

— Eunji — she turns around, her gaze contains a cheerful glow in the midst of a confused expression.

On the steering wheel, my previously resting fingers now drum, restless.  My hands are sweating cold and they seem to have butterflies playing in my stomach.  I take a deep breath, I try to calm the nervousness that strikes me, she doesn't seem to notice.  I try to utter the words loaded with the truth but they hang on my tongue.  I try again, my mind spins, my fingers are more restless on the steering wheel damp with cold sweat, I stammer twice before giving up.  I smile at her, disguising anxiety and nervousness.

— Never doubt my feelings — my voice comes out, little more than a whisper.  Mentally, I curse myself feeling like a fool.

Eunji grins, turns around and continues on his way.  I watch his silhouette disappear into the real estate.  My gaze turns to the steering wheel and I let out the air, I barely realized that I had caught it.  I let a long, frustrated sigh escape my lips.  Why is it so hard to tell her?  I do not understand.  What stops me so much from telling the truth?  I shake my head chasing away the questions and start the car.

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The palace lights are on.  The guards at the gates quickly recognize my car and allow me to enter.  I drive the vehicle to the garage, the gate opens slowly as soon as I press the button on the car's key control.  I park without much haste to postpone my entry to chaos as long as I can.  I very much doubt that my father is not waiting for me.  I don't want to think about what awaits me inside, I don't want to imagine what he will do to me so that I can tell him where he was.  If I'm lucky, maybe he'll leave the reprimands for tomorrow.  If I'm lucky.

I get out of the vehicle after parking the car and drive to the palace entrance, walk calmly and enjoy the sound of the garage door closing behind me.  The sky is already dark by dusk, it is full of stars, the moon is just a white smile in the immensity and I have the strong feeling that tonight she mocks me.  The night is cool and calm, a peace that confronts my stunned heart.  Standing in front of the huge gates, my mother faces the impatient nighttime darkness, she does not take long to notice my presence.

I insist on walking more slowly.  The last thing I need is to postpone the storm that awaits me.

— Where were you?  — His eyes seem to want to smash my body, but I remain silent and walk into the palace.