THE HEART WANTS WHAT IT WANTS [TaeJinKook] ✓

VII

After 6 months:

Jin tried to understand Hobi's word.

After thinking so much he came to realize that hobi wants him to wait for Taehyung.

And that Taehyung loves him.

In initial day it was easy for Jin to think that, to hope better.

But as time passed he started getting depressed.

What if hobi is lying?!

If Taehyung really loved him, then why he left him?! Why didn't he say anything to him?!

Not even goodbye.

He is hurt that his mind always think about everything in negative way.

He thinks that maybe Taehyung realized that Jin is not good for him, and he left this country to get rid of Jin.

Bcoz Jin is clingy. And he will not let Taehyung go away from him so easily.

That's why Taehyung ran away.

But hobi doesn't want to break his heart and that's why he told jin that Taehyung loved him.

And just that thought broke his heart all over again.

Before meeting Taehyung, Jin's life was ok. Yes, he was alone but he was used to of it.

When Taehyung came in his life, Jin's life changed. Those months where he was only chasing Taehyung but Tae didn't talk to him, that months too Jin was happy, bcoz he knew his aim. He has something to focus on. A hope that he can be happy with Taehyung in future.

The three months that he spent with Taehyung, that only made him more hopeful and made him wish more to have a life with Taehyung.

But now, when Taehyung is far away from him, Jin doesn't know what to do.

It's like he doesn't has any reason to live.

Everything remind him of Taehyung, just bcoz he dreamt a life with Tae, that is now crumbling in front of him and he can't do anything.

He doesn't like going to library now. It remind him of Taehyung. But still as a stubborn person he will go there, and cry missing Taehyung.

He changed the mall where he used to work at just bcoz he missed Taehyung there more.

But just for one week though.

After one week he was again working in that same place, just bcoz what if Taehyung came back. Jin doesn't wants to give Taehyung hard time.

His home is the last place where he was with Taehyung, and the place which reminds him of his mistake the most.

But he can't change his home either, again, what if Taehyung came back and look for him.

The books that used to give him peace are not useful anymore.

Nothing can stop him from thinking about Taehyung.

And feeling hurt.

Right now, after six month, he is in front of a bar. It's night time. And it's his first time coming in a bar. But he wants to get lose.

He heard somewhere that alcohol can make you forget your pain, and even yourself.

That's what he want.

He wants to forget his pain.

He timidly came inside the bar and sat on stool in front of the bartender.

The bartender gave him a look and then smiled at him friendly, "First time here?!"

Jin nodded.

"So, what do you like to get?!" Bartender asked.