Body Language (MewGulf AU)

🌞Chapter 39🌻

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"I LOVE YOU."

Gulf yelled. From his eyes, the tears fell in huge drops.

"I like you. I love you. I love you so much it hurts. When I saw you with that girl, I couldn't stop my heart from hurting. When we were having sex yesterday, I was thinking that you'd done it with her too. That's all I could think of. It was horrible, just thinking about it, so I thought we should split up. But I liked you even though I thought you didn't like me. I loved you from the bottom of my heart, but you still went off with some girl. And so, I thought."

"You were scared?" Mew was holding his hand to his heart. "You're so stubborn. Were you really thinking of not saying anything to me? You were that scared? If you hadn't said anything, then we would have to break up. I'm so glad you finally spoke up."

"...Mew? Are you listening to me?"

"No, I'm not. I don't have to. As soon as I made you say you love me, I understood it all. I knew that you cared for me. But you just kept it to yourself huh? You can't do that. You have to say it over and over. I want to hear it. I want to hear my precious Gulf tell me over and over that he loves me."

Mew smiled gently. This may have been the first time Gulf had ever seen that. A smile that meant everything.

"You get it now?" Mew held Gulf softly. "This whole time we've been together. Give me a break. How could I not be totally in love with you? As if I'd get a girlfriend. Why would I look at anyone else but you?"

"...you lie."

"...that's not sexy. Why would I lie? Why won't you believe me?"

"But you've been with so many girls."

"Yeah, I have. Slept with a lot. But you know, it was a boy I fell in love with at first sight. How could it be any more simple? The moment I saw you, I fell in love. I tried my best to ignore it. But you see, I just couldn't date anyone else. All I really wanted was to be with you. So I dumped them. I stopped dating girls, and when I asked you, I thought that maybe we could. So when you said you'd sleep with me, I was so terrified that time. I thought that I could get used to it. The rumors weren't true." Mew tapped Gulf's forehead. "I was your first, wasn't I?"

"...how did you know?"

"Hmph. When I tried to enter you, you were so tight. And then it looked like it hurt. You didn't look like you were enjoying yourself at all. Did you understand how I felt?"

"..you weren't annoyed?"

"...you're a total idiot, you know?"

Mew looked disappointed and drooped his shoulders.

"If you're with someone ypu really like. And they're enjoying themselves, you're happy." Mew grinned. "Even though it was our first time, I thought that you might have loved me, or you'd never have put up with the pain. Was I wrong?"

"...you weren't wrong."

"You liked me?"

"...do I have to say it?" Gulf buried his face in Mew's chest. "If I said anything then, it would have been over. Did you have to go out with me? Did you have to make me your lover?"

"What are you saying?"

Mew softly stroked Gulf's hair. His hand was as warm as always. Guld hadn't understood the meaning in that warmth though.

"You know, I hardly go to school at all. I skip all the time, but I still go to the cafeteria. Why do you think I did that? I can yell you it wasn't for the disgusting coffee."

'That's true,' Gulf thought. They had met everyday in the cafeteria. He had gotten so used to spending his lunch break with Mew. He hadn't even noticed. Mew had been there everyday. Fresh tears began to form in Gulf's eyes.

"Did I have to be your lover? Idiot. I was the one who wanted it."

"...but someone slow like me...I couldn't understand how you felt, and then I hurt you. How can you be okay with that?"

"You're always here though, always gentle. When you're here, I can relax. You accepted me for who I am, even the bad parts. You like all of me right?" Mew made Gulf look at him. "That's why I want you. So tell me. Tell me now"

"I love you."

The tears bubbled up again. All the tears he had never cried came out now.

"I like you. I love you. Please let's be lovers!"

"Of course. I feel the same."

"I'm going to be the only one, right?"

"Of course. No worries. I only love you."

"Only want me."

"I'm only going to want you."

"And not cheat?"

"Nope. Never. I'll only get a hard-on for you."

"...always? It's always going to be like that."

The tears were flowing like a waterfall now. Mew wiped them away with his hand.

"...it hurt so much."

"You can say it as much as you want now."

Mew stroked Gulf's back as he sobbed.

"You can be selfish, or jealous. I want all of you. I love you, will you say it again?"

"...I love you."

Mew planted a kiss on him.

A soft kiss.

Even just their lips touching sent shivers down his spine.

"I like you. I love you."

Each time Gulf told him, Mew kissed him.

TBC