how to fix a broken heart ;; hiccelsa [completed]

19/P1/while you're here in Cali with me, i am your mom

E L S A

Holy shit my head hurts. It feels like I ran into a wall over and over again. I probably didn't but I wish I had. Might've killed me. Don't think like that! Why not? I mean, no one likes m- Now you know THAT'S not true! Why would you even THINK that?! Considering the fact that my 'loving boyfriend' told me he didn't love me and only dated me because he felt sorry for me..I would believe that everyone who says they 'love' me really doesn't! Why am I even talking to you-you're me! Bye conscience.

"HOLY SHIT ELSA YOU SCARED ME! I THOUGHT YOU ONLY DRANK A LITTLE BUT YOU'VE BEEN OUT FOR LIKE 6 HRS HOW MUCH DID YOU DRINK?!" Punzie was screaming at me.

"Good morning to you to Rapunzel," I sat up and rubbed my head.

"What the fuck Elsa, I told you not call me that!" she whisper-shouted at me, "Now you have a lot of explaining to do."

"Punzie. You are not my mom. I am extremely hungover at the moment. Don't yell or talk too loud because that only makes my headache worse. Alright?" I put my head in my hands and shook it.

"No Elsa! It is NOT alright! Jack came back at 4am with you barely leaning against him and he had a black eye! You expect me to just let that slide by without an explanation!?" she leaned forward and squeezed the life out of the pillow she was hugging. "And while you're here in Cali with me, I am your mom."

I groaned and fell back against the bed. "Ok ok. All I remember is the fight with Hiccup, dragging Jack out the door, drinking a few shots, and waking up arguing with myself. If you want a proper explanation, go talk to Jacky-boy."

I didn't look up but I heard the door open. "Elsapleasedon'tyellatmebutI'mlockingyouinherewithHiccup."

That made me sit up real quick.

"WHAT?!" I didn't care that my head was practically screaming at me to lay down. I was not being locked in a room with him.

"I'm leaving to go talk to 'Jacky-boy' and you and Hic need to make up. Like right now. You know how he is when he's drunk. His brain does the opposite. It says lies. Ok? He's beating himself up over it, really bad. Just, just hear him out, alright?"

If looks could kill, Punzie would be dead right now. "Five. Minutes," I spat out through gritted teeth. "Then he leaves."

"Great! I'll go get him!"

And with that, I was alone.

Well I was until Hiccup came stumbling through the door, only for it to be pushed shut and locked one second after. It took him a while to realize where he was and what had happened but when he looked at me I think he understood what was going on. "Elsa..."

He looked terrible. His head was wrapped in a bandage, already stained red. His face was pale, except for his eyes which were red and puffy. His hair was sticking up everywhere and he was wearing nothing but gym shorts. I could see the bandages around his calves and I wanted to cry. Punzie wasn't joking. He was beating himself up.

"Hiccup. Don't talk. What did you do to yourself?" I got off the bed and walked over to him. He looked down at me with such a pained expression and it hurt me.

"Elsa...I fucking love you. I love you so much. I love you. I love you. I love y-" I interrupted him.

"Shut the hell up, ok?! I don't care if you love me or not! WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU?! DID YOU DO ALL THAT BECAUSE OF ME?!" I screamed at him. He looked at me with a blank expression.

"You're my world Els. I can't live without you. So I thought, if you din't care, why should I? I shouldn't love you. After what you did to me! After you walked out on me! With my best friend! After you threw everything at me! After you come home drunk two nights in a row, leaving me a fucking mess! I SHOULDN'T LOVE YOU! BUT I DO!" He screamed at me getting closer and not stopping until he was a foot away.

"You shouldn't love me?! I SHOULDN'T LOVE YOU! YOU'RE YELLING AT ME BECAUSE I WENT OUT AFTER YOU TOLD ME YOU DIDN'T LOVE ME?! YOU'RE TELLING ME THAT YOU SHOULDN'T LOVE ME BECAUSE OF THE THINGS I'VE DONE?! LOOK AT WHAT YOU'VE DONE! LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO ME! OF COURSE I WENT OUT AND GOT DRUNK!
JACK CAME OUT WITH ME! AND THE SECOND TIME IT WAS BECAUSE HE WAS THE ONLY ONE THAT WOULD TAKE ME! DON'T TELL ME THAT YOU SHOULDN'T LOVE ME! I SHOULDN'T LOVE YOU! BUT I DO AND I HATE MYSELF FOR IT!"

"Elsa, I fucking hate myself for what I did, and I understand the first time. But what the hell?! Two nights in a row you go out with Jack and get drunk off your ass?! What am I suppose to think about that?! You scared the shit out of me Els! I thought he tried something again! I thought I'd lost you! I'm a monster and I know you'll never forgive me for what I did but just don't torture me by coming back late every night, drunk and with Jack by your side. I can't stand that. I can't and I won't look at that! You can hate me and scream at me all you want but please don't put me through that!" He was look at me with glossy eyes and I wanted to break down. I couldn't hate this boy. Because I love him. We've put each other through hell and back, and we still love each other. I don't know how or why we do, we just do.

"I love you," I said and kissed him. I kissed him hard. He kissed me back and wrapped his arms around my waist and mine went around his neck. I pulled back and looked at him. "I'm sorry. I forgive you. I love you."

I pecked his lips and looked at him with a smile. His grin was so wide I never wanted to stop smiling. He had that affect on me. He looked down at me with love and adoration in his eyes and at that moment I knew that I could never hate him, for anything.

"No. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said those things. I love you so much Elsa. Elizabeth. Aren," he whispered and pulled me into a bear hug. "And I'm never letting you go. Ever again."

I buried my head in his shoulder and I never wanted to leave this moment. Ever. Because in this moment, no one else existed. It was just us. And I was so happy. He loves me and I love him and that's all that matters to me.
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I KNOW I SAID SUNDAY AND IM SUPER LATE BUT HEY HICCELSA IS BACK BABY!

I've been dying to make this chapter and I really hope y'all like it! I like cried. It's just- they're- awhhhhh I can't even.

I might do a chapter in Hiccup's POV, but only if that's ok with you guys.

Anywaysss...I'm sorry I haven't updated in a week but in my defense, I started watching The Walking Dead and I've been trying to catch up! And I'm almost caught up to so yayy!

HICCELSA IS BACK SO DOUBLE YAY!!

If you're reading this, I love you. Thanks for reading this story & the A/N. You're the real MVPS.

xx/Maddie:)