Not Another Love

Chapter 8: Finding Carson

I pull out the old key to the beach house. All it brings now is bad memories that I can't shut out of my mind. As I'm walking up to the door I hear someone inside. My heart flutter and I jam the key into the door. It takes a few second but the old door finally swings open to see a girl. She's blonde wearing his T-shirt with these short little shorts on.

" who the hell are you?" I question

" I'm guessing your Carson's girlfriend?" she replies in her cute little tone.

" Where is Carson?"

"Oh he's in the guest room"

I run for the guest room in a panic.The floor squeaks underneath me and my heart is practically beating out of my heart. I see him in the bed shirtless above the covers smoking who the hell knows what.

" Carsen" I say under my breath.

He doesn't even look up from his lit cigarette.

" CARSON I searched all god damn day for you, you left me I didn't know if you were safe you could have been dead for all I know and now your hear smoking not giving a shit about me."

" calm down babe."

" don't babe me you just cheated on me with the skank don't expect me to be okay with this" Tears are pouring from my face.

" we just like kissed that all." Carsen replies

" That all you kissed another girl Carson and that means nothing to you. I think I deserve better than to be cheated on."

" Your not so perfect either." he whispers

" I never gave up finding you I cried for you to come home I did everything I could to understand why you would leave but I still don't understand why." I yell

His pupils look like there dilated I walk closer to him.

" your drunk, you know what Carsen that's it I'm leaving."

I run out of the room.

" so how did the talk go" the girl replies

"go to hell" I smack her in the face as hard as I can and stumble outside.

Right as I get outside I just stumble and fall to the ground. I'm a mess. I'm crying harder then ever before I have no feeling in my limbs and just want to be left alone.

" You can't drive home like that" says Carsen as he walks out of the beach house

" no shit Carsen"

" why are you so sad I don't understand I just.." Carson stutters on the words

He's Innocent little eyes look into mine and I can't leave him here he's not himself.

" you need to get back inside." I say swallowing hard.

I crawl to the steps and sit down for awhile as I hold my head up with my hands. I grab my phone and dial Josh.

" Josh it's...it's Carsen come to the beach house."

" What is he okay what happened?" he asks

" Just come" I hang up

I'm sitting trying to get myself together but it's not exactly working so well. I hear the girl scream particularly loudly and I run instead to see Carson on the ground.

" he having a seizure." she replies

" call 911 NOW"

she grabs her phone as tears run form her face and they say they will be on there way.
" you you need to go" I say to the girl.

She stares at me for a long time then grabs all her stuff and leaves in a hurry.

" tell him... tell him that I hopes he's okay"

I nod and wait for the police to come he's not even moving anymore he's still and his breathing is all weird his heart is beating faster than anything I've ever seen before. As the ambulence makes it way over they put him on the stretcher and I try to get into the van but they say since I'm not family I can't come.

" you have to let me on sir he only has me"

" I'm sorry miss but if you don't have proof of that you cannot come onto this ambulence."

I run into my car and drive to the hospital as fast as possible I'm suprised I didn't get a speeding ticket. I call josh again and tell him that we are at the nearest hospital and Carsen just had a seizure. He said he'll meet me with Liv, Taylor and Luke.

I make it to the hospital and I'm sitting alone in the waiting room there is barley any people there. I can't stop crying and lady comes over offering me water. I pass. I keep looking at my feet I still don't have any shoes on. My feet are pretty bruised and are not looking so well. My shirt is a little sweaty and my hair is all salty and gross. It's been 2 hours and Carson is still not able to see anyone. It 5:00 right now and all I want to do is see if he's okay. Josh and Live and Taylor and Luke come. They give me a big hug and try to cheer me up but they are all sad inside. I call his mom and dad but they are no where close to being able to come. His mom says she'll try and come out as fast as possible but she can't promise anything. I try to stay strong for the phone call so I don't worry them but it's hard. Almost impossible to stay strong when the only person you've ever loved is falling out of love with you.

I know he's sad about his sister and he's trying to get his mind off things but that gave him no right to go and cheat on me with another girl and just leave me, get drunk and not even care about all the people around him that love and care for him.

This will probably be on his permanent record and now which will be just great on those college applications especially now that he has to tell them separately considering he already sent them all in. My tears are slowing down it's one of those silent cries now.