𝗜𝗺𝗽𝗲𝗿𝗳𝗲𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀..... | 𝗷𝗶𝗸𝗼𝗼𝗸 |

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tw// mentions of rape and sexual assault

jimin pov
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I woke up with the same uneasy feeling as I always do. The same starving yet nauseating feeling as always. I tugged the blanket off of my body and swung my legs over the side of my bed.

Taking a deep breath I stared at my wardrobe that was practically taunting me. Like it knew that I didn't want to get up. I sat for a good couple minutes before deciding to finally stand up and walk over to it. Picking the finest black oversized T-shirt I had accompanied by baggy jeans. My feet dragged as I went to brush my teeth and wash my face avoiding looking in the mirror. Still disgusted by my reflection.

For some preposterous reason I had thought that after meeting someone and talking to a person everything would change. How could I have imagined that my painful thoughts would just disappear when someone spoke to me?

I still hate myself. I still hate my life.

I sighed heavily exiting my room in hopes I can just leave the house without running into my parents.

"Jimin." Of course. The sound of my mothers bothersome voice echoed through the house making me roll my eyes. I don't feel like doing this again. I just walked past her and out the door. I can't deal with that right now.

"Park Jimin! When I talk to you you don't fucking leave! I'm your mother you fucking ungrateful asshole!" She yelled after me but her words don't hurt as much anymore. She stopped being my mother a long time ago. Without another thought I continued walking to school.

The breeze was cold and there was a slight mist in the air. My eyes couldn't help but water at the pressure of the air on them. I hid my face by staring at the ground and allowing my hair to fall over my features. I didn't want anyone to see me cry. I didn't want anyone else to have a reason to make fun of me. I can't be known as the mute kid and a cry baby.

I walked carefully towards the back of the school trying to avoid the big crowd of obnoxious kids. As I approached the back of the school building I felt my heart practically drop. I couldn't even comprehend what I was witnessing. There was a group of boys surrounding a smaller black haired boy. He looked like he was crying and yelling at them as they laughed. They were all pushing and hitting him.

My eyes widened at the scene. How am I suppose to help? I had no idea what to do. With every ounce of confidence I had I yelled. I can't just sit here and let him suffer. No one else deserves that.

"S-S-Stop!" I shouted and everyone's head turned towards me. With all the attention on me the smaller boy ran the opposite way leaving me with the other boys. Although it was fucked I understand. I was just glad it would be me and not someone else. I deserve it.

"And who do you think you are?" One of them approached me angrily. I walked back with each step he took eventually my back hit the wall.

"I'm fucking talking to you bitch!" He spat sending drops of saliva on my face. My body shivered in disgust and fear. I need to get out before this turns bad.

"Oh so you think you can come here..." He paused and turned around looking at the other boys with a taunting smile.

"And ruin our fun without paying for it huh?" He leaned in closer to my face. My eyes suddenly started to water relentlessly. My fear pouring out onto my face without my authorization.

"I said is that what you fucking think?!" He yelled slamming a hand next to my head. My body was trembling and shaking vigorously as I thought about what they would do to me.

"You better start fucking talking before my friends and I open that pretty mouth for you." I whimpered at the threat allowing my eyes to shut. Whatever they were going to do to me was going to happen. I couldn't get one word out. The boy chuckled darkly as he roughly squeezed a hand between my legs. My thighs tightened even more trying to prevent him from going any further.

"Open your fucking legs slut." He spat irritated with how I was resisting.

"Get the fuck away from him!" Another voice came from the other direction causing everyone to follow it. I couldn't move still being trapped in the larger boys arms.

"J-Jungkook?" One of the boys stuttered as they all started slowly backing away from me.

"If you want to keep your hands you better get off of him and leave before I fucking chop them off." Jungkook threatened with dark eyes as the boys all scattered almost immediately. For a second it was quiet. Nothing but the wind and my thoughts. I started back at the raven haired boy whose gaze was already on me. Why did he save me?

Images of the boy touching me kept popping up into my head. He was going to hurt me. My back slid down the wall slowly as I cried into my hands. Why is this my life?

"Jimin." I flinched at the abrupt breaking of the silence although his tone was soft. Through my sobs I was able to glance up noticing Jungkook was a lot closer than before. My eyes widened as I started to cry more hoping he wouldn't hurt me. Hoping he didn't save me just to have me for himself.

"I'm sorry." He apologized and I don't know what he was saying it for but I didn't respond.

"I'm sorry for how I've treated you. I know you don't trust me and I wouldn't either, but I- just know I'm sorry and I promise I w-won't hurt you anymore." He stumbled over his words looking just as nervous as me. I was shocked to hear the words fall so effortlessly out of his mouth. How could he sit there and lie to me like that?

"Liar." I whispered finding someone type of courage through his words. If he wasn't lying he wouldn't get angry.

"I'm not lying. I know you won't believe me... but I'm so sorry and I wish I could change what I've done. I didn't- I had no clue that it affected you the way it did. I'm sorry Jimin. I never meant to hurt you in this way." He started to sound genuine but I know better than that.

He's Jeon Jungkook. The boy that has harassed me for years. Why would he change now? Because of the road incident? Because he saw some boys about to rape me? Because he feels guilty?

"Go away." I glared at him tears still streaming down my face. Fuck those boys. Fuck Jungkook. Fuck this world.

"Just-" He sighed looking defeated.

"I know it's not my place. But just be careful." I scoffed at his words as I flipped him off. He doesn't deserve my sympathy after what he's done to me. Maybe he should've let them. Maybe then I could get the courage to break the last part of my promise.

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sad :(