𝗜𝗺𝗽𝗲𝗿𝗳𝗲𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀..... | 𝗷𝗶𝗸𝗼𝗼𝗸 |

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jungkook pov
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I peacefully walk through the park on my way to study in the library. As soon as I enter I can't help but notice my bestfriend and Jimin laughing and smiling together. It makes my anger rise and my anxiety sky rocket. What if Jimin starts to like Taehyung? What if I lose them both?

"Excuse me." A boy says from behind me and I step out of the way, but he doesn't move. Only smiling with a small laugh.

"No I wanted to ask you s-something." The smaller boy says and I nod allowing him to continue. My gaze keeps shifting over to the two still having a great time... without me.

"You're in Mr. Lees class right? AP Chemistry?" The boy asks and I nod again. I fucking hate that class with a passion.

"Okay well... I was wondering if you'd be able to help me. We're in the same class and I don't know if you've noticed me before but I was just really hoping you'd be able to help me out. I don't know anyone else. I mean like if you don't want to that's okay too-" I burst into laughter and he stops talking and frowns slightly.

Oh. I didn't mean to offend him I just thought it was kinda funny how much he rambled on.

"I'm sorry... I didn't mean to laugh, it's just that you talk a lot." I smile hoping he won't take what I said the wrong way.

"No it's- it's okay I'm just... wow this is embarrassing. I'm gonna go." The boy tries to hurry off because I seem to have killed his confidence.

"Wait-" I call walking after him and his face is beet red when he looks back.

"I'm sorry I think I came off the wrong way... I wouldn't mind helping you at all, but I'm not the best with it." I give him a warm smiling hoping it would ease his worries.

Why am I such an idiot?

"No it's really okay Jungkook. You don't have to do this out of pity." His frown deepens as he goes to walk away again.

"I'm doing this because I want to help you. Come on." I sigh exhausted. I have this habit of accidentally pushing everyone away.

"Do you know my name?" The boy asks and I honestly have no clue. Hell I didn't know he existed until today.

"Uh..." I stutter and he chuckles dryly.

"We've been in the same classes together for years and... you don't even know my name." He gives me a small smile before actually walking away.

I can't just be nice to anyone can I? I have an inability of caring for anyone but myself and I know it. I just wish I wasn't like that. I wish I could be different.

jimin pov
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I'm on my way home, or rather the place I reside. It hasn't been a home for years. My front door is wide open and that's never a good sign.

"-fucking house! I fucking hate it here! I hate my life! I wish I was dead!" I hear before I even step into the building. As soon as I enter I can immediately smell the stench of alcohol. She always drinks excessively after whatever fling she has going on ends.

"Is that you Jimin?!" She yells. I purposely enter as quietly as I can but she notices me anyways. There are papers and trash all over the hallway floor. She smashed a lamp and probably so much more.

"Look baby I'm s-sorry! I'll never yell or hit you again... I'm so sorry honey." She sniffles and sobs out to me.

If you think this is some type of turn around in our relationship... it isn't.

Shes 'apologized' to me at least 20 times. None of them she really meant. As soon as she finds someone else she'll just go right back to her old ways. It's a tiring cycle.

I don't answer her, take a deep breath, and head straight to my room. As bad as it sounds I would be better off without her. If she died tomorrow I don't even know if I would shed a tear for her. I would cry for the death of my actual mother... the woman that died years ago.

I close my door and lock it hoping she won't follow me. Sitting on my bed with headphones in and music blasting I cry hard. I can't have one day without something happening. Not even one day of peace. I close my eyes hoping I can sleep off the empty feeling in my stomach.

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