Blood bound

Part 17: Emotions

After a while Chaeyoung leaves and I let out a breath of air. To say I'm mentally exhausted would be a complete understatement. After Yoongi wiped her memory she seemed almost robotic, not herself. Maybe because I had witnessed her freaking out just two seconds prior and then everything was fine but regardless, it bothers me.  

"Are you alright?" Jin asks as he runs a hand from my shoulder, down to my fingertips and back up again. I nod mutely and stare at the blank white wall to the left of the tv. "Are you sure?" I look up at him and force a small smile. 

"Yeah, I'm positive." He nods his head and sighs, his eyes alight with concern. Who am I kidding. I can't fool anyone let alone vampires with crazy weird gifts and senses that will catch you in any lie, any day, anywhere. I stand up as Jin's hand slips from my arm. "I think I'm gonna go lay down, I'm pretty tired." Jin nods and presses his lips together as I start up the stairs. This is going to suck, I've already gotten myself into a huge jumbled mess that I'm not sure I can dig my way out of. Now I just have to roll with the shots I guess. I open my door and start in surprise to see Yoongi laying on my bed. His eyes find mine and he searches my own. 

"I know somethings up and if I had to take a guess, your disturbed by how your friend was affected when I wiped her memory. I gulp and shake my head. 

"No, I'm just tired." He shakes his head. 

"Don't lie to me Y/n, I'm not a gullible idiot." His words are harsh but his tone and eyes are completly soft and concerned. I sigh.

"I'm not upset with you Yoongi, ok?" He shakes his head. 

"I never said you were, your deflecting." 

"I am not, I just don't want to talk right now." He takes a deep breath and I bite my lip softly. "I just feel like it's wrong, not only did I take that choice away from her but, she wasn't herself. She was upset and freaked out and then she was happy and fine the next minute... And I'm not upset with you, I'm upset with myself. Not only did I completely take away her free will but I didn't listen or respect her. And she should have come to terms with everything on her own. Instead I was being selfish and conceited because I was overwhelmed and upset and I feel like I just royally fucked up." I shake my head as tears well in my eyes. "I keep asking myself how I could've done something like that to her... I mean if I really cared about her I would've listened... You listened to me, you turned my parents back to normal, you respected my wishes and I on the other hand didn't... What kind of person am I to do something like that to someone, let alone my best friend?" Tears spill and he shakes his head. 

"Stop beating yourself up Y/n, you know as well as I do that leaving her be would've been a huge mistake. She was scared and freaked out and she could've gotten herself into some pretty crazy shit if we would have let her leave knowing what she did. At least she doesn't have to live in fear of us or you let alone knowing that there are monsters out there. You saved her from that and you kinda saved her from getting herself into trouble to. People that know are at risk, and they put us at risk. She could've outed us and you, she could have ended up in a mental hospital, she could've ended up dead. Who knows? There are many possibilities but you taking that away from her saved her all of that trouble. If some other supernatural creature found out that she knew we existed she would be hunted down and slaughtered. If anything you should be glad that you made the choice you did because you could've possibly just saved her life. I know it sucks because your right, she was scared and freaked out and then she was fine, and that wasn't her own free will but that's a tiny price to pay for her safety and peace of mind." I take in a huge breath of air and nod feeling a little bit better. 

"Your right." I say as he pulls me into his lap. 

"I know." He replies with a small playful smile. I shake my head and settle myself on top of him, laying my head on his chest. "Tired?" I nod. 

"Today has been exhausting." He chuckles and rubs my back. 

"Go to sleep love." He keeps rubbing circles along my spine and it doesn't take long for me to fall asleep in his arms.    

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"Hey!" I cry out as Jungkook takes the finishing blow. I pout and he smiles proudly. 

"No one beats me." 

"Well you could have at least has a little bit of mercy! I could barely get a hit in!" He chuckles. 

"Well that's how you play." I grumble like a child and hand the controller to Taehyung all the while glaring at the boy. Hoseok laughs as I plop myself down next to him crossing my arms over my chest. 

"Jungkook is nearly impossible to beat, trust me we've all tried." I look at him and shake my head. 

"He's a cheater." 

"Am not!" Jungkook retorts all the while, pummeling Taehyung. 

"Well technically-" 

"Oh don't even go there!" Jungkook cries out. I simply glare at the back of his head. 

"Alright, how about you and me go out to the balcony, I have a feeling you might try to murder the maknae and I'm not sure how I would explain that to Namjoon and Jin hyung." I laugh as Hobi pulls me to my feet. 

"Ok, come one." I drag him along and he smiles. 

"You know, you never fail to surprise me." I look back at him and furrow my eyebrows. 

"What do you mean?" I stop once we're outside standing underneath the moon and stars. 

"I mean your just so unpredictable, your unlike anyone I've ever met." I tilt my head to the side. 

"Is that a good thing?" He laughs and the sound makes my chest swell. 

"Of course! I find it quite fascinating in all honesty." I smile. 

"Well I think I've always been a little different, I mean I was a normal teenage girl, I snuck out and went clubbing so on and so forth but I also had tendencies to do things out of the ordinary to I guess." Hoseok smiles. 

"Well I'm really glad that this all worked out," I grin. 

"Me too." He sighs and looks down at me before bringing his hand up and cupping my cheek. As much as I used to screw around, I've never been in a real relationship before and the only time I've done really anything with anyone was with Yoongi and then the maknae's. So of course my heart starts to go crazy and butterflies rage in my stomach. Hoseok pauses for a moment and chuckles. 

"Cute." He whispers as he listens to my heart rate quicken. My cheeks tint a bright red and he brings his mouth to mine kissing me softly. His lips move against mine and I revel in the feeling of his soft skin against my own. His hands find my waist as he pulls my against him and my own wrap around the back of his neck, tugging gently on his hair. Hoseok pulls away and kisses down my jaw and my neck leaving my completly and utterly breathless as he sucks and bites gently. I can feel my stomach twist and I can tell that this might take a turn that I wasn't expecting. 

"H-Hoseok." I breathe out as he sucks at my collar bone. His hair tickles my neck and I whimper softly as his teeth drag against my skin. I shiver and he pulls back his eye color a ruby red that I've become oh-so familiar with. 

"We should probably take this upstairs." He says throatily. I gulp and nod. 

"Yeah, we probably should." He chuckles and scoops me up into his arms while I let out a small yelp. 

"Then that is where we shall go." He takes off and  I bury my face into his neck. Seconds later I'm on my back and Hoseok is on top of me, the both of us on my fluffy cream colored mattress. "Are you sure this is ok?" He asks a tint of worry coloring his tone. I grab at his color and pull him down, our lips crashing together. 

"Positive." I breathe against him, and that was all it took for things to turn. 

A/n, 

Hi guys, I am so sorry I haven't updated in for freaking ever, idek if people really read this but here another chapter! I hope you like it!