For You ✔️

Chapter 21

I have been avoiding Jungkook for the past few days. It was really difficult, everytime I see him I wanted to run towards him. He tried to come to me whenever he get a chance, however I manage to escape. It's killing me inside, I can't bear to see the hurt in his eyes. But I made myself believe it's for his own good.

I've been clinging onto Seokjin for all these days. He's like a brother for me. He even asked me a few times why am I prying him day and night. I just shrugged it off.

They all know something is wrong between me and Kook, although they don't force us to tell. Jimin and Suga have doubts if it was because of that day.

"Ara...ARA" It was Jin.

"Oh, I'm sorry." I told out of practise. I keep forgetting they can't hear or see me. Only Jungkook could, only him. I was stirring the noodles on the stove. My thoughts distracted me and I stopped what I was doing. That was why he called me. I started continuing what I was supposed to do.

"Hyung, can I have a talk with Ara?" Suga came from upstairs drying his wet hair with a towel. Jin nodded understandingly.

I took my leave by handing over the spoon to Jin. As I followed Suga, I took a pen and paper along with me.

"Ara, you are like a sister to me. I hope you know that." I wrote down that I know.

"What happened between you two? One time you were so glued to each other and now you don't even acknowledge each other's existence."

'I thought it would be good if we keep distance. I don't want to hurt you guys. I know I have crossed a line when I came into your lives. I always tried to make me believe I was alive like you all. But no matter how bitter the truth is, I should accept the fact that I might be dead.' I wrote down.

"Hey, it's true we don't know what is happening to you. But you are more humane than you think. You are one of the people I know who is caring and loving. You always were ready to help us out even forgetting your own matters. You always put us above yourself. So please don't say that. If you are hurting because of what Jimin told, don't be. We don't want you to throw away the friendship you had. All we were saying was not to grow feelings unless you're sure there is possibility. So I want my little sister to be the crazy mess you always were and mess with us especially Jimin and Tae like you always did. They miss you a lot, so do I . Okay?"

'Yes'. I didn't know he cared about me this much. He was never the one to open about his feelings. So when he talked to me like this, it meant the world to me. Like he said, I shouldn't have thrown away what we had. Jungkook did nothing wrong. Now I understand we were punishing not only ourselves but also the others.

I should talk it out and tell him sorry for what I did. There is one thing I should be careful about, my own feelings. The unsure feelings can grow into something that could hurt us both.

I was in the basement. Jungkook was not home, he had to go for something urgent at his work. I was waiting for him to return and it was already really late. So I thought I will stay in the basement and talk to him tomorrow morning because he might be tired after all the tiring works.

I dozed off resting my head on the table. Soon enough I woke up hearing something I hate the most. Thunder. It was pouring outside. Thunderstorm was increasing as moments pass by. I was scared out of my wits. I closed my eyes and tried to count from one to ten. Nope, not working. I shut my eyes tightly to forget all of this. I thought of Jungkook, how he helped me calmed down that night. How he pulled me closer to him and made me feel safe.

Two hands wrapped around me as the familiar scent I have missed all these days filled the room. I didn't open my eyes, I don't have to, I just know it's him. I hugged him tightly as I felt myself compose down.

"I missed you. And I'm sorry. I'm sorry for avoiding you." I held onto him as tears welled up in my eyes.

"I missed you too. I thought you hate me." His voice told me he was hurt.

"No I could never hate you. It was the opposite, I liked you too much to the point it might hurt you."

"You would never hurt me. Please don't leave my side again."

I nodded still resting my chin on his shoulder. Aahh, how much I have missed him, I realised that now.

"Come on let's go to my room." He said as he loosened his grip around me.

Although I wanted to, I shouldn't. I don't want to repeat what happened before. So I tried to reason with him.

"No, I will stay here today. This was my first room remember. He might've thought I forgot him when I got promoted to your bedroom." I tried to bail with a lame excuse.

He sighed and sat beside me. "Alright, but I won't leave until you sleep. Deal?"

"Okay, deal." I gave him a thumbs up.

I was too tired that I slept within seconds and landed on the oblivion. There's neither darkness nor light. I am not even sure if this is a place. I feel like I am floating whenever I come here. I spent hours and hours there. This place isn't giving me any feeling of rest. It rather makes me uneasy. But I don't have a choice, I need to sleep what if I go to someplace else next time, somewhere nice.