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6.

nash sat in the lounge room as i gave him a glass of water "hey, whats that on your wrist?" he asked as i quickly pulled my hand away making sure he had the water, muffin was on his lap him petting her

"what do you mean?" i asked "were those, umm..scars?" he asked as i contained myself "no" i said smiling

"why would you think that?" i asked rubbing my wrist

"nothing" he said looking at me suspiciously "anyways, lets go?" i asked hoping he would drop the subject

"c'mon" he said as we walked out

i was wearing a black tanktop, a black cardigan and black skinny jeans with black vans, yes wearing black from head to toe

"do you know how to skate?" he asked "yes" i said as he smiled i kept myself together, and put on the smile everybody thought was real

i mean it can be real, but sometimes it can also be fake

we walked over a skatepark and nash handed me a skateboard "thanks" i said as we went inside

i did a few tricks and skated to the bowl

"nine feet deep, you up for it?" he asked "yup." i said and prepared myself

i got on the edge and put my board there

i skated down and reached the other edge perfectly safe "yes!" i cheered as nash cheered with me

"good job!" he said as i got up "c'mon" he said as we exited the skatepark

we entered subway as i laughed at him "subway?" i asked "subway" he smiled sheepishly

we ordered and got our food and sat on a window booth

we started eating our sandwiches and chatting here and there

there was a call from my phone

"hello?" i asked "hey, carmel" the person said "who is this?" i asked politely "its camilla" this camilla person said "im sorry, i dont know anyone named camilla" i said "im your sister" she said as i raised my eyebrows, though she couldnt see me

"nice try" i said hanging up and putting it back in my pocket and sat back down

"you okay?" nash asked "yeah, some chick just prank called me" i said "your kinda..i dont know, sad?" he said "nobody fucks about me and say some shit about my sister okay? she was a big part in my life" i breathed out as we put the rubbish in the bin

we walked to the flat and he sat in the couch and so did i

"tell me more about her.." nash said

"well, after awhile she told us she was pregnant, then she gave birth yes, she is alright.." i paused and closed my eyes and took a huge breath "you dont have to continue" he said concern filled his voice

"no" i said "a few months later, she was diagnosed with lung cancer" i paused "and she died" i breathed in opening my eyes

"then a year later my mum came out telling me i had two other half brothers, they're both in a rock band" i said inhaling

"my dad moved out and the other family moved in" i said "i got bullied because of my mum having another family, my dad moving out, and my sister dying" i sighed "i went through anxiety and depression.." i paused "the depression went to the point where i started cutting" i said showing him the scars "the bullying got physical and i got brouses everywhere, they told me to go die and they'd be throwing a party, i did it, i overdosed" i said "i was in the coma for a few months and woke up, the bullies still bullied me but not physically" i sighed "i still got depressed and didnt talk to anyone, i started doing online schooling to make everything better, but the bullies got to websites and would call me out" i said

"alyssa was the only one that i talked to, that's why we moved here, the bullies vanished and life is quite nice at the moment" i said smiling at the end

"i started listening to rock bands more and thought that they probably had been through what ive been through" i said "vic introduced me, my older brother" i said "wow, you are a strong girl" he said pulling me into a hug as a tear slipped my eye "but im broken" i said barely above a whisper