Haunted (Percy Jackson fanfic)

Chapter 15

I was lost

   I didn't know where I was, well, at least mentally, my thoughts would go between what I want and what I need, but it just frustrates me. "Fuck!" I growled to myself as tears rolled down my face. Trying not to grab a drink to relax is hard, but I couldn't do it, which didn't make me happy. I was angry, frustrated and upset. He didn't specify which addictions, right? I shook my head, laying down and passing out almost immediately.

   When I woke up, I didn't know what time it was, all I knew was that it was dark, and nobody was around. Sitting up, I sighed, standing up and walking out of my cabin, the harpies left me alone, and I went to the lake, looking at how the moon reflected off the water and the stars shined bright. The water was cold on my feet, but I didn't mind, so I tossed off my shirt, and I was already in shorts, so I eased into the water slowly, soaking my body in the cold lake water. "What do I do, dad?" I whispered quietly, but the waves only crashes against the shore rhythmically.

The run didn't rise for a few more hours, but I enjoyed the silence, the peaceful thinking, to content to even try to drink and smoke, but now that I was thinking again, the urge was strong, I wanted to get wasted and forget, I woke, but I want to, and it's not a crime to want something, even if it's bad for me. "Percy! What are you doing out here? It's early!" I heard someone shout, and I looked over my shoulder, seeing Jason walking towards me, a slight confused look on his face. "How long have you been out here?" He asked.

"I'm just thinking, I woke up awhile ago because I went to sleep early. Needed time to myself." I sighed quietly, looking at the suns reflection on the lake, which helped me relax.

"Think about what? About the fact the note changed?" Jason asked curiously, almost like if I were thinking about that, it would bug him as well, so I just shrugged.

"I'm not ready to get over the addiction. It may be bad for me but it helps me forget about what's going on, what was going on." I explained nervously, looking at him as if it would help me realize that he's trying to help, everyone is. But the feelings didn't change.

   "Is that why your cabin was destroyed?" Jason asked me, looking at me unimpressed, and I looked at the water again.

  "It was really hard yesterday, it's so tempting, the thought that I need it, it makes me happy. I was frustrated with myself."

   "Annabeth went in there last night after a nightmare, she was so frantic when she saw it was destroyed and you were gone, she told Chiron and everyone was looking for you. Should've figured you'd be here." He chuckled, but I didn't find it funny, I stood up, tossing my shirt back on, and Jason stood up too, and we left the lake, which helped me. Although I'm not hungover, I have a killer headache, and I felt kinda anxious.

   "Percy!" I heard an angry shout, and I turned and saw Annabeth, who was in tears, and guilt took over me. Jason walked away from me and Annabeth came towards me, I couldn't move, nor speak. Guilt hit me like a train, I couldn't even think about myself. "Where were you! I thought I lost you!" She cried into my chest, and I help her close, rubbing my fingers through her hair.

  "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you." I whispered to her, hugging her tightly, she just hurried her head farther in my shoulder.

  "Why was your cabin destroyed if you weren't captured?" She asked, wiping her tears as if she never cried, which only made me feel worse.

   "I got angry yesterday because I knew I had to get over the addictions that I wasn't ready to give up. The thought of getting better seemed impossible. I'm sorry." I mumbled, looking away to try to stop myself from crying.

   "You need to go clean it up then, I'll talk to you later." She said, walking away.

  "I love you." I said, but she was already gone, so I just stood still, staring after her. It was minutes before I went to my cabin. The floor was covered in class, liquor, pill bottles, cigarettes, furniture and laundry, and I sighed heavily. Turning on some music, I sighed loudly.

   It was hours before I finished cleaning, although I did stop to grab something to snack on. Anger came easily to me today, and I only kept getting more angry while I was cleaning, which is why it took so long to clean. I'm not going to lie saying I didn't smoke or drink or pop any pills. I was pretty drunk right now if I'm not going to lie. He said I have to get over it, and not relapse, he didn't say I need to stop that instant. The addiction was hard to get over, and it doesn't seem worth it.

"Hey, how's the cleaning- Percy! What are you doing?!" Annabeth shouted at me, smacking the bottle of beer out of my hand. Jumping back, I looked at her in shock.

"What was that for?" I asked, my tone turning slightly angry.

"How many have you had?" She asked angrily, raising her voice a bit, showing me how angry she was.

"Only a few, chill." I grumbled, picking up the shattered glass, not caring to much if it cut my hand at all, I was to angry to care about damage done. I threw the class in the garbage, and noticed a new case of beer on the counter. Gabe isn't trying to help me get over it.

"How many is a few? Because it doesn't look like only a few! She said, gesturing to a case of beer and an open pill bottle.

"It was only a case and the first two of a new one. It's fine." I grumbled, sitting down shakily, the dizziness was a little much.

"We're done!" She shouted, storming away, but I could barely comprehend what she said, all I knew was that I messed up, badly. Silently, I sat there, leaning against the wall and tears rolled down my face, the anger faded, being replaced by regret and shame. She has every right to leave me. I've done nothing but hurt her since the stupid ghosts came! I just keep turning more and more into Gabe!

"Why am I alive! All I do is hurt people!" I shouted, grabbed a bottle and throwing it. I grabbed the crumbled note from my pocket and pinned it on the wall, looking at it, and my face dropped, the anger disappeared. The note was blank.